- 3 years ago
- Wedding: May 2013
Well, I don’t know quite where to start! It’s been a whirlwind few weeks, and especially the past 5 days!
<br />On May 12 I had a routine appointment with my midwife and after discussing options, we decided that since my SPD had become increasingly worse that induction would be a good route for me to go. We scheduled for Friday, May 16 at 5am, but my midwife informed me that there was a chance I would get bumped since I “technically” had an elective induction. Sure enough, Thursday afternoon I got a call saying that they needed to bump my induction to Sunday at 5am. Okay, no problem! Well, after calling right before we were leaving on Sunday morning (it’s an hour to the hospital), I got another call as we were walking out the door saying that they could no longer accommodate me. Well, I’ll save everyone the details, but luckily 7 hours later we were on our way to another local Kaiser hospital, which was actually 2 hours away vs one hour.
<br /><br />We arrived at the hospital at 11am and were immediately put into a room. It was 1pm before they got the pitocin going in my IV, and the midwife informed me there was a chance it may not work since I was having an elective induction. All we could do was be hopeful!
<br /><br />When 3:30 pm rolled around, the nurse checked me and I had not progressed at all. The midwife came in and told me that we would likely be sent home that day with a failed induction. DH and I were heartbroken. Not oly because the hospital is SO far for us, but his schedule really affects how long it would take for him to get home should I go into spontaneous labor (5 hours to be exact).
<br /><br />As soon as the midwife left the room, I got up out of bed to pee. As I was opening up the bathroom door, I felt a HUGE gush run down my leg. I thought to myself “are you kidding? I just peed myself?” But it kept coming..my water had broken! So much for going home!<br /><br />I told DH to call the nurse to come in, and she ran in with a huge smile on her face. My smile only lasted until my first pitocin-induced contraction came along since my water had been broken. Within two minutes of my water breaking I was in horrid pain. I was completely doubled over as the nurse helped me get cleaned up. I really don’t know how they do what they do, they don’t get enough credit! She not only helped me get cleaned up, she was helping me get through the contractions since there was no room for DH in the bathroom where I was. <br /><br /><br />
At 4:10pm, I asked the nurse to go and start the tub to see if I could get some pain relief. It took about 10 minutes, and that 500 ft walk to the tub room was the longest of my life! I was trying to stand up and breathe through the contractions the best I could, but the fun part about pitocin is that the contractions are literally one on top of the other, so I had no break to breathe and try and gather my thoughts again.
<br /><br />When we finally got into the tub room, I couldn’t get undressed quickly enough. Dh was rubbing my lower back, pressing on my hips, doing whatever he could think of that may make me feel better. When I got into the tub, I was pretty disappointed that it did absolutely nothing. I gave it about 5 minutes before I told my nurse that I wanted out and I wanted the epidural ASAP. <br /><br />Now, the awesome thing about the Kaiser hospitals here in Portland is that they have labor and delivery specific anesthesiologists who are always on site, so you really don’t have to wait when you say you want the epidural. <br /><br />DH and my nurse, plus another nurse worked quickly to get me into a gown, which was quite the chore since between contractions all I wanted was to be hunched over leaning against DH’s stomach. Somehow they all made it work though! Again, with the long walk back to the room, but when we got there the anesthesia team was already in the room, ready to go.
<br /><br />Because the pain from the contractions was so bad, they turned off the pitocin to give me a bit of a break. With the pain being so intense, there was no chance that I was going to be able to hold still for the epidural, so they gave me a dose of Flexiril. To anyone who is in massive amounts of pain and needs immediate relief during labor, if they offer Flexiril, TAKE IT! Within 20 seconds of them putting it in my IV, I was happy as a clam and felt NO pain.
<br /><br />At 5pm, my epidural had been started and I was relaxed in bed waiting for the Flexiril to wear off and the epidural to start working. They did have to come back and “top off” the epi because after 20 minutes I wasn’t as numb as I should have been, but in the grand scheme of things, I was totally relaxed.
<br /><br />At 7pm the night shift midwife came by and checked how I was progressing. Without pitocin, I had gone from 2 to 3cm and my cervix was moving exactly where it needed to. They still expected me to be in labor until at least Monday afternoon, but they were wrong!
<br /><br />Around 11pm the nurse was in checking my vitals and I told her I was starting to get some feeling back and probably needed the epidural topped off again. I also was beginning to get a very small amount of pressure under my right butt cheek. She called the midwife in and I was fully dilated! I was completely floored! The feelings that I experienced when they said I was ready to push, I can’t even explain. It became incredibly real at that point! DH came over to my bedside and grabbed my hand, and smiled. He brushed my hair out of my face and helped me get it up into a ponytail. He was just as excited and nervous as I was, this was it!
<br /><br />At 11:10 pm, I began to push. The epidural really did make the whole process so much more bearable. I can’t imagine having done it without! I ignored the clock, I really didn’t want to know how long this was going to take. At 11:45pm, my nurse called the midwife back and said to get prepared, we’re gonna have a baby! It still didn’t seem real.
<br /><br />I kept pushing through contractions and trying my hardest, I didn’t want to be trying to get her out all night! At 12am the midwife said “just a few more and she’s out!”. Talk about giving you incentive! I wanted that baby. I wanted her in my arms, and I wanted her now! I gave one more really hard push and Dh said that put it so half way down her head was out. After that, I heard the midwife yelling at me “Stop pushing, stop pushing!”, but I wasn’t. Apparently Madison literally FELL out so quickly that the midwife had to catch her.
<br /><br />At 12:04 am on May 19, Madison Kim was born.
<br /><br />She was put directly onto my stomach, and then once I delivered the placenta they put her on my chest. She stayed there for about an hour while I got stitched up. They then started her APGAR and all of the other fun newborn things. The nurses were so amazing. Before they touched her with anything, they made sure to tell me exactly what they were doing. DH went with her over to the area of the room that they were doing everything, and the look on his face..I can’t even put into words. He was so proud, I couldn’t stop crying. I couldn’t believe that this was real, this was now our life. Every single ache and pain I experienced became a distant memory. I was a mom, my husband was a dad, and this was our daughter. Our perfect, healthy, beautiful daughter.
<br /><br />They say you can’t put into words what you feel when your baby is born, and you really can’t. Madison is now 5 days old and I still find myself just gazing at her in amazement. We made this, with pure love, and our lives feel so much more complete now that she is in it. Watching my husband become a father has made me love him even more than I thought was ever possible, and the love I feel for Madison is incomparable. My life is so incredible, it was before, but now…..I can’t even believe that I’m blessed enough to get to wake up every day with this reality. <br /><br /><br /><br />Madison Kim
May 19, 2014 12:04am
7lbs 3oz and 20.5 inches
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