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So...I've always been a size 4. Very athletic...not much boobage. I was fine with it, rocked the athletic look, always wished for boobs, but hey, I couldn't complain.

Now that I'm in my mid 40's, it's all different, and I'm trying to wrap my brain around it. I've spent the last year trying to fight this...I've doubled the mileage that I run, I started doing P90X, and cut my calories drastically. No matter...these 10 to 15 lbs refuse to go away. When I look at myself, I realize the athletic look has gone away, and now I am more of a curvy gal. I am in good shape, but hello! it's all different now. My boobs have exploded...my cute athletic b's are now d's! I even went to get measured, cuz I couldn't believe it, lol.

So now I have to figure out a whole new way to dress. I am trying to accept being a size 6 and to stop beating myself up about it. I don't think I'll ever be a 4 again...sigh. Can anyone relate? Should I still keep fighting or just accept this? I'll always excercise and eat right, but I never had to fight my body before...