- 5 years ago
- Wedding: January 2013
Has anyone else lost a family member some time before their wedding? My 16 year old baby girl, Kitty, a cockapoo, who I have had since she was a puppy, passed away while we were away at our wedding vacation. It was supposed to be the happiest time of my life, and it wasn’t. I miss her so much.
We arrived in Mexico on January 6th, to be married January 11th. We received a call from the kennel on January 8th that my dog, Kitty, has stopped eating and that they took her to an emergency veterinary clinic. I was in shock. She passed away on her own terms several hours later that day from kidney failure. I felt very helpless and far away from her… wishing I could be there to comfort her. For the next 2 days I barely left my hotel room. I couldn’t eat or see any of our wedding guests. My parents, my husbands parents, and some cousins and aunts and uncles came to Mexico for our wedding. We had thought to postpone the ceremony but we were convinced by our parents that the show must go on and people came all the way here to support us. I pulled myself together for our wedding day and got married to the love of my life. Our trip was for 11 nights but we wanted to go home after the wedding. It was not easy to change our flights without paying, so we stayed the whole time. A tropical all-inclusive resort is no place to properly grieve. It was horrible.
The wedding was beautiful, however now when I look back at pictures and hear music from our wedding day, I cannot help but feel sadness. Will the sadness ever be replaced by happy feelings? To make things worse, Kitty was cremated on our wedding day. Our wedding anniversary is tainted. I feel like I will never overcome this. I’m having regrets for booking the wedding vacation when I did, thinking that I could have been with her. Has this happened to anyone or anyone you know? Can anyone give me some advice? I miss her dearly.
I know this post is long..Thank you for reading.