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I feel sorta embarrased to say this but Im sure you guys will make me feel better. I basically was never in a relationship beforee my FI. Ive had many guys like me and Vice versa, but for religious reasons I didnt really have a relationship. my FI is my first everything, but becuase were so apart, ( LDR )- we dnt spnd time together. Our wedding is in june ( Yay! ) But omg, Im so worried! i am myself infront of those I know for a long time-- obviously my family and my bestfriends.. Im fun, cheesy, sweet and kind. but becuase Ive only spent a few days with my FI when we saaw each other-- I look back at it now adn realize omg-- i am so boring! We cuddleed a lot and it was nice but i realized i ran low on conversation, I wasnt that much fun---- I just wasn myself. Then i go back hom, and now when were on cam ( skype, msn ) and/or on the phone, Im all gitty and happy once again. I feel so lame... and Im stressed now over this because im thinking what if after were married and finally under one roof and spend so much time together, Im still not myself and acting like a total bore-- making him regret the day we ever got married. LOL -- idk.. maybe i am over doing it.. but i think a big part of why Im feeling this way is because I never relly was in a relationship, So I never was given a chance to be able to be myself and enjoy it. Can someone make me feel better and tell me itll be okay? share stories? =/

Thanks loves, i appreciate whatever your going to say!

Is most of the time you spend together "down time"? By which I mean cuddling, spending a lot of time by yourselves not doing much, etc. Because that puts pressure on you and makes you more aware of what you're doing, and if you're nervous then you're potentially going to shut down. Why not try to do activities together, like bowling, so that you don't have a chance to get too quiet? Playing competitively against one another can help to bring out the "real" you and make you more comfortable with him.

You can also try playing a fun, simple game like "would you rather" with weird situations to get the two of you talking.

@jocember: Those are good ideas! we do play and do all of that ( Online or on the phone when we talk ) But during those little times we spent together, yea we cuddled a lot. and obviously spent with his sister ( Shopping ) and his family. I remember going to a picnic/BBQ with him that his brother in law threw, and it was lovely, and I met a lot of people and was cooperative but when me and him sat together- I dont remmeber if we relly did talk- we talked about the food but we just got up and walked around insteaad and took pics.

@bluebonnet: thank you so much for that! your lucky that your and your hubby were bestfriends prior to being together, it does make things easier! Your right, i think itll fall into place when we spend more then.. one FULL day together. the times we spend togethe were stolen moments.. basicaclly a few hours a day and that was it. the last time I saw him about... probably...5-6 times within the month I was around-- due to some other personal family issues. I guess the more I spend time with him, wake up to him and etc. things will fll into place and it would be less weird with time.

@bluebonnet: I agree but were apart now-- and the next time I cn see him will be in 5 months. Its not that we coulnt talk about BBQ food.. we did talk haha, but maybe its the way that i look back at it that makes me wonder if it was even a conversation at all. like you said, quality time will do wonders im sure, but i think i just  have to stick it out after were married and work on that. Thank you ! (: