- 6 years ago
I’m in a LDR (though we’re slowly but surely closing the distance gap)…we’ve been together for a little over 2.5 years. Right now we see each other every other weekend, which is great. But I’m finding that lately, my neurotic/insecure side has been coming out. This is the closest we’ve ever been to each other (2.5 hours), and yet I’m freaking out about stupid things that I never even thought about when we were farther apart!
Please reel me back in, bees! I have the guy of my dreams… he treats me with respect, we have an incredible connection, great physical chemistry, we just get each other. We want to get married in the future (I’m 23 and he’s 25 so we still have some time), and whenever I’m having an insecure moment he reminds me that he’s not going anywhere and that I have nothing to worry about. So wtf is wrong with me? Here’s what has been running through my mind over and over lately:
1) I’m having trouble adjusting to him being closer but less accessible. He just started a grad program so he’s going out more, trying to make friends… everything he should be doing, I just feel lonely sometimes because we talk less (though he has been making an effort to talk more).
2) What if he’s not ready to move in together when I am? I’ve suddenly become much more restless about being apart. I guess it’s because I have a job prospect that’s 1.5 hours from him. We’ve talked about when we would move in together and he said after he finishes his masters (2013) or PhD (god knows when). I got upset because we could live together in the middle and each commute ~50 minutes if I got the job, and also because I don’t want to wait 4-6 more years to live together if he does a PhD.
3) I just want to fast forward to the time when we can live together and be married! Sometimes I think I am the most impatient person on the planet, seriously.
So, I know this probably sounds super crazy and ridiculous but I’d love to hear your opinions on how to get my brain to shut up, or how you handled your own neuroses (I doubt I’m the only slightly neurotic bee here!). Thanks! 🙂