Ladies thank you for this thread. Our wedding is in three weeks and I can’t sleep because I am second-guessing everything about the day. We chose a Bollywood-theme reception, which is ending up being incredibly difficult to create without it feeling (here’s THAT word again) – tacky. And I chose a dramatic RED mermaid dress – that I LOVED the idea of – and suddenly I’m like – “why wasn’t I just happy with a simple flowy white number, barefoot on the beach?” I definitely wish I could go back in time and NOT do a wedding at all – and spend a fraction of the money – and elope.
I can’t. And everyone is coming. And this thing is happening. And I’m sure it will be FINE – but you get forced into all this nonsense – like worrying about having the dancing outside, in the grass (I am NOT spending MORE money on a dance floor) – or inside, on the delicate hardwood floors of the historic home. So I have to keep telling people – PLEASE don’t wear high heels . . . and hope for the best either way.
And I got all this bright colorful crepe paper to decorate outside – but I’m afraid it will make the historic ranch look tacky.
Everything is super blinged out – and over-the-top because I had all these fun visions when we first started out.
And it SOUNDED fun – but the reality of it all – just is starting to feel like a circus instead of a simple union.
It feels gaudy and tacky – instead of simple and meaningful.
I just wish I had had an editor.
Or SOMEONE to stop me from getting myself into this in the first place (and dragging my amazing, sweet Fiance into it too.)
I keep trying to stop flipping out.
It’s gonna be fine.
But yes – I’m definitely second-guessing it all.
I committed us to a big wedding, and now wish we had eloped.
I committed us to spending way more than we initially talked about spending. (We’re not going into debt or anything – and at first it didn’t seem like a crazy amount – but now it feels crazy).
I committed myself to a theme that is VERY difficult to do well and follow through on.
I love our expensive venue – but now it’s proving somewhat impractical as a space due to the aforementioned dancing issue.
I mean – there is very little I am not second-guessing right now.
So all I can do is breathe – cut back on the gaudiness here and there – and then try to just go with it.
But at this point – I just want to get it over with so I can just wake up with my partner and go on with our normal lives.
I seriously just want to get it over with.
I’m BARELY excited at all.
Anyway – it does help to know I’m not crazy and not alone in the madness.
I’m just mad at myself for not having the foresight to see that this would be so hard.