- 6 years ago
Ugh. I am so tired of being a pain in the butt. Here is a bit about my last 5 months or so—
Ex FI and I split up mid November after 1.5 years of mostly hell due to his inability to be nice to my children and his lack of communication, etc. I met another guy a few weeks later. We dated for four months and he broke up with me a week ago due to my attitude issues. We are still talking about giving me another chance. I promised I would change my ways because I can definitely admit to it and I do know why they are there.
It seems as though when I am really happy and feel very lucky, bad moods take over like they are trying to sabotage things and/or protect me from getting hurt in some weird way. It is like the more you love someone, the more you feel you have to lose. So in turn, you act like a jerk so you can try to “prove” to them that you are bulletproof even though that is clearly not the case. Does/has anyone else felt like this? Or does anyone have any advice on how to deal with the moods? I don’t yell or say bad things….I just have a bad tone and am very cold and snappy. Ex bf is very opposite. He is respectful, calm and would never yell at me or call me any bad name. Help anyone?