- 6 years ago
- Wedding: August 2012
I worked at a tanning salon for 4 years where I did great (made high commissions, earned performance-based bonuses, etc.) then I quit because I moved and it was too far away. Afterwards I took a year off and worked at a grill in a golf course, where I was given an interview and hired on the spot. I worked really really hard at this place, but my timid personality caused me to get pushed around by some people, and I did nothing about it. I was the first new hire in a year and a half (!) so employees as well as regular golfers seemed to pick me apart and gossip about me–I know this because I was ALWAYS getting in trouble for little things I did when only one or two people were around to see it. For example i gave one golfer, Jerry, a dollar extra in change and he gave it back, next thing I know I’m in trouble because he told my boss I’m not paying attention to the change I’m giving back at the register!!! Getting hounded and micromanaged hurt my performance in a big way. If my boss was around I’d be a nervous wreck as I made food or served customers. The anxiety was like nothing I’ve ever known. Anyways, 6 wks after I was hired, my boss called me into her office and, through tears, fired me. She said I didn’t do anything wrong, I worked my butt off, and shes never had to fire someone for this, but according to her I just “wasn’t getting it”. They were about to start their busy season and basically felt I could be detrimental rather than helpful. I think she meant for that explanation to hurt my feelings less, but all it’s done is scare me. In my mind all I have been able to think is “so you’re telling me I did my best at this minimum wage job, but even that got me fired?” I just landed my first “big girl” job and I’m so nervous to start something new. I’m scared of messing up or never “getting it”. I’m a shy girl and that won’t change overnight, and I worry I may be put in situations in the future where my livelihood is at stake again and I still am unsure how to react! Someone please tell me they had similar jitters when starting their first full time jobs. Stories would be sooo much appreciated right now.