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Girls, maybe it is just hormones, but I've been such a wreck since getting a BFP 12 DPO (my LP is 12 days).  I had cramping and spotting 8-9 DPO and then 11-13 DPO, which really made me anxious, even though I know some spotting can be ok... The spotting was very minimal and mostly brown, but occasionally brownish-pinkish-red (never bright red though), and mostly just when I wiped (sorry if TMI).

Anyway, I was very relieved yesterday when the cramping and spotting stopped, but I started feeling really sick and ended up with a fever (99.5 – 101.5, depending on the thermometer), aches, and nausea. I've actually been feeling gross on and off since 3 DPO, which I attributed to a bug, since that would be too eary for pregnancy symptoms. Anyway, I took Tylenol right away and my fever came down. Later in the evening, I started with a terrible migraine (which I am prone to). I slept on and off all night, in total agony, unable to take anything other than tylenol. I couln't stop crying because I felt so miserable and so scared... my hubby thought I'd pretty much lost my mind, though he tried to be sweet.

In attempt to ease my fears about this being a chemical pregnancy, I’ve been POAS every morning with FMU. Well, instead of getting darker, the line is getting lighter! Today it was so faint it almost looked negative (I also took a digital that was positive). :( I've been sad all day. Google tells me this can be a really bad sign or could not mean anything at all... I am SO angry at myself for testing, as I am obviously making myself nuts!

I did make an appointment with my PCP tomorrow (since my OB appt isn't until 2/14)... I'm going to ask if she'll run betas.

Sorry if this sound whiney... just not sure how to feel better. hubby doesn't really understand, just tells me not to think about it and nobody else knows but you girls. I would appreciate your prayers... thanks!!!

So sorry you are anxious and nervous, I would be too.  POAS every day is probably not the best thing to do mentally to calm the anxiety and nervousness.  I'm 12 weeks+ out and I'm still nervous all the time that something is wrong and, from what I'm told, that's completely normal.  Good luck tomorrow at the doctor's office.  I will be thinking of you.

As a side note on how you are feeling, those were my exact same symptoms and they were that early too.  I pretty much always feel like I'm coming down with a cold or, when nausea is really bad, it feels like the flu.  It was really weird and something I've never expected.  Just really wanted to share so you knew you were not alone either with how you were feeling or with being a nervous wreck.  I know it's hard not to obsess but know that you have zero control right now with what is going to happen with this pregnancy.  Keep the faith and we are all praying that everything is ok for you. 

I've had the same symptoms as you! I wasn't sure if I had a fever or not last night, but I've had headaches and vomiting.

I read somewhere online (and I don't know how true this is) that at some point, the pregnancy tests will stop coming up as positive, even if you're still pregnant. I read it on babyandbump..but I would think not to get too too nervous unless you start some heavy bleeding! 

Although I say that, I'll be the next one freaking out! But I'm crossing my fingers for you that everything is okay!

Sending good thoughts your way! My fingers are crossed for you! Let us know how the appt goes!

Thanks girls! I appreciate every one of your responses.

I saw my primary care doc yesterday morning. She had me get some labs (HCG, thyroid, CBC (since I'm sick))... she was kind but not optimistic about this pregnancy. 

The OB office called later all worked up because I hadn't gotten my blood type done (I guessing they want to check the RH business??) or progesterone level... so I had to rush back before the lab closed and get a second set of labs drawn.

Hopefully they'll call me by the end of the day with the results. I'm assuming if HCG is low they will just know it isn't viable, but if it's high, maybe they will send me for a repeat???

So sad. :( DH is still a little hopeful, but I just have a bad feeling. The challenge now is to be able to concentrate at work! Work is piling up because I can't seem to focus!

Thank you girls... your thoughts and prayers are so helpful. Unfortunately my 16 DPO HCG came back a pitiful 27, so not looking good. I'm going to go back now to get a second beta to see if it's going up or down, though the told me they probably won't have the results until Monday. The waiting and not knowing are torture.

Awww. Hang tight and try to be patient. Sounds like at this point that's all you can do. Thinking of you!

After 47 hours, my HCG went from 27 to 35. I feel like that number is ridiculously low and definitely indicates my pregnancy is not viable... However, the midwife says it is too early to tell, that it's in the "gray zone"... is she just afraid to tell me the truth?? I just want to know for certain. I'm going to have another lab drawn on Tuesday.

Thanks for the support girls.

@nona49:  DPO = days past ovulation and LP = luteal phase (the length of time between ovulation and AF (aunt flo). Thanks for the good thoughts.

@Audreysdance:  & @MRSLMA:  You girls are so kind to think of me. Thank you! I got blood drawn yesterday but don't know the results yet. The midwife is supposed to call with the results today. All your positive thoughts and prayers are much appreciated! I'll let you know when I hear...

@running elley - thank you!

Turns out my midwife wasn't in today buy the nurse said my beta was 222, which is a 42 hr doubling time. She wouldn't interpret the result - said I had to wait to talk to the midwife, but for now, I'm feeling a little more hopeful. Plus, today I am more nauseous than ever, so maybe that is a good sign? I don't want to get my hopes up too much though.

Please keep up the good thoughts and prayers! I really appreciate them!