- 6 years ago
- Wedding: July 2013
Probably not the best forum for this, but I figure there are bees here from every church so hopefully somebody can help me out!
I was born and raised Catholic. I was christened, received communion and was confirmed in the church. I very much believe in the things I was raised to – I believe in Jesus and accept him as my Lord. I believe in the immaculate conception. I believe in the Catholic idea of Heaven, etc.
HOWEVER…as I have gotten older and more socially liberal, I have found my views to be in conflict with my church. For instance: I support gay unions and rights for gay couples, I support gay adoption, I am pro-choice, I support the use of contraception, etc.
Additionally I am very private about my faith. I have my beliefs, but I do not go out and try to convert anybody or spread the word of God. To me, religion is a sacred personal decision, and somebody’s faith (or lack thereof) is not my business.
I also support scientific advances such as stem cell research and I believe in the theory of evolution (although a skewed version I suppose. I do believe God created the mechanisms behind evolution, if that makes sense). I believe creationism and religion in general should be kept out of public schools, or at least taught alongside science and other religious viewpoints as well (Judaism, Islam, etc). I believe in sex ed.
Also, I am OK with sex before marriage. Well, I have it, but I feel guilty about it and feel the need to confess it.
I just feel like I don’t belong in any church. My views are liberal, the Roman Catholic church is not. But I still do strongly believe in Jesus and what I was taught. I believe in my God and I can’t imagine not calling myself a Catholic.
Do I fit in with any church?? Attending church and receiving communion are important to me. I’d like to find a place where I fit in. But I feel like my views are too contradictory 🙁