- 7 years ago
- Wedding: December 2010
My husband and I were married December last year. We have been together 7 years this year. I am 21 and he is 25. We had been living together 3 years before we wed.
For as long as I have known my husband, he has been the one thing in my life that I have been sure about. From the moment we met I felt the strongest pull towards him, like I would be willing to do anything for him. We have been through a lot over the years, but every rough patch only drew us closer together.
Even though we got engaged at such a young age, our families and friends were so supportive.. they think that we are made for one another. I did have cold feet but was open with my feelings and my husband and I worked through them.
Since getting married I have started working fulltime. My husband has a very good job, and is also doing his masters. He also has goals of competing in bodybuilding competitions so he spends a fair amount of time at the gym (we go together though).
For the past 2/3 months I have felt.. different. I still love my husband, but I don’t know if I am in love with him. I find myself daydreaming about other men (something I never used to do) and sometimes browsing the internet for rental properties and planning what I would do if I moved out. I can’t really imagine life without my husband, we have it pretty good and don’t really fight that often.
He is really busy, so we don’t get much time together, but he encourages me to go out with friends, family etc and lets me have a fair bit of freedom.
I do feel lonely a lot of time time. When I am with my husband I don’t really have these feelings but as soon as he is away from me it hits me like a tonne of bricks and it is all I can think about. I also know that the grass isn’t always greener on the other side and considering we don’t really have any major issues so I should just put on a happy face?
I just don’t know what to do.. I spoke to my dad and told him how I felt and he thinks now that we are in ‘real life’ mode I am bored, as I missed out on dating and all that other stuff as I have been with my husband since I was 14 and don’t know any different.
I don’t really want to talk to my husband about this though as I fear it is a Pandora’s box and if I do get over these feelings I don’t want to have hurt his feelings or put doubts in his head.
Does anyone have any opinions or advice? 🙁