Post # 1
I considered posting this anonymously, because it is a little embarassing…but fuck it…here goes.
I’ve noticed that when I PMS, I get mood swings. And I’m not talking minor get-a-little-weepy mood swings. They’re BAD.
Today, something really scary happened to me. I’m due to start my period soon, so I’m fairly sure this is PMS related. All day, I’ve been crying. Sobbing, even. I’ve been angry, sad, angry-sad, and many other negative emotions. Today, I cut myself. It wasn’t a bad cut, there was a little blood but not much. In the past I’ve struggled with self-harm, but have been able to manage to stop myself from doing so in the last 5 years or so. I don’t/didn’t self-harm because I am/was suicidal, and I’m not looking for attention. When I realized what happened, I felt sick to my stomach, disgusted with myself for relapsing, and slightly less than human if I’m completely honest.
The messed up part is, I can’t even say why I cut myself today. I mean, yes of course I’m having problems in my life (who isn’t?) but nothing to justify cutting. I’m generally happy with my life (except for my long distance engagement, but I’m coping with that ok) but when it comes time for PMS, my moods are out of control. I’ve noticed this in the past, but this is the first instance where I really looked at the situation and thought “This really isn’t right”.
I’m not sure what to do. Any remedies on how to calm down the mood swings? Or maybe I’m past that point and should seek medical attention (something I don’t want to do if I can help it, because I don’t have insurance).
Sorry if this post seemed all over the place/weird. As you’ve probably figured out, I’m not exactly myself today.
Post # 3
Seeking help is probably a good idea. There are things that can help with hormal changes and other problems, but first you need to know what it is. Even vitamin deficiencies can lead to depression.
Do you pay less to see a naturopath? In general, I’m a little skeptical of some of the things they do, but if it’s quite a bit cheaper getting your vitamin level checked is a good place to start.
My doctor had recommended evening of primrose oil to help with PMS, and it did somewhat. I was also diagnosed with a vitamin B12 deficiency (unrelated to PMS) but I found that taking some has also improved my mood somewhat.
Hopefully you can find what you need! If you ever start to have serious problems please call someone, there are free resources out there.
Post # 4
I agree with AB Bride. I think at this point it would be best for you to seek a professional. I become a witch when I PMS, its normal to be moody because your hormones are at their peak. I feel like since you cut yourself, it may be more than just hormones. I know you dont have insurance, but its kinda scary for me to read that you are aware you cut yourself but don’t know why because to me that means in the momeny, you lose all sense of self control. Huge Hugs!!
Post # 5
Thank you both for your responses. I talked to my mom and she reminded me that I was diagnosed previously with bipolar (I didn’t initially think of that because I never suffered the “typical” bipolar symptoms and my mom always told me she thought I was misdiagnosed, not to mention I haven’t taken meds for it in probably about 9-10 years). When I described to her what happened/how I felt, she said that it sounded very much like manic episodes that she has suffered from in the past.
I think the best thing I can do is suck it up financially and see a doctor, and possibly get back on mood stabilizers.
Thanks again for taking the time to respond to my post, I really do appreciate it!
Post # 6
Have your estrogen/progesterone ratio checked.
Post # 7
Sounds like PMDD, have you looked into that at all?