- 5 years ago
- Wedding: June 2012
Hi Bees! I haven’t been on here in *ages*, but I’m just having an awful night and there’s no one here to talk to and I just need to vent!
My DH is a first year medical resident. We’ve been together all throughout his schooling, and I’ve often felt like being a ‘Dr’s Wife’ is a few steps down from being an Army Wife. It’s hard, and it’s stressful, and I’m his support system when things are falling apart – and I could use a support system of my own.
Usually it’s really good, and he doesn’t “bring work home” in the sense of bringing emotional baggage back home. But tonight he’s on call, in charge of the ward overnight… and things keep cascading onto him, and my heart is breaking for him, and I just want to do something to help, but there’s nothing… and I have my own exams to study for…
He can’t give me much info (confidentiality), but it’s been a rediculously crazy night with more patients then he should be admitting, and now someone just died unexpectedly (which is bad enough from an emotional standpoint) and the coronor is already there doing an autopsy (which is very suspicious and red-flaggy, and I’m in law school and am literally right now reading about negligence among health professionals, so I recognize that this is very realistically looking like a negligence/malpractice issue), and then first thing in the morning he’s scheduled to do a lumbar puncture (which he’s done only a handful of times before so he’s not very good at it yet) on someone suspected to have mad cow disease (which he described as “so potent/deadly that it makes HIV look like a common cold”) plus DH is kind of OCD so even if he does the LP properly he’ll be obsessing out about it for weeks to come (“am I sure I didn’t poke myself?”).
I LOVE DH to death, and he’s the most wonderful partner, and my soulmate in every way. I just hate it when he has stressful nights, because I just want to be there for him, and make it all better, and just can’t help but wish that he had a *normal* office job where he wasn’t dealing with crazy emotional/legal/health issues, at crazy hours of the night, and that he was hear right now, and I could just get some work done and a good night’s sleep for both of us.
/endrant. Thanks for listening!! I promise I’m not always so scatter-brained and rambley… I just seem to be currently thinking in ‘run on sentence format’. Sorry!!