- 2 years ago
- Wedding: November 2015
I don’t know if this post is in the right place!
I’ve spoken to my mum earlier today, just for a chat and see how my grandad is doing, as he’s been in hospital for a few weeks – not for any real reason as far as I know, just he couldn’t get out of bed and my nan can’t lift him, and he may or may not have had a stroke, no one is sure.
So I ask after him, and apparently he’s really not well at all. He’s sleeping contantly, not eating or drinking, didn’t recognise my uncle and doesn’t speak more than ‘Hello Darling’ to my nan and mum. Mum has said that she’s not sure he’ll come home.
My grandad is my… I can’t even think of the words. I’m sure you bees know what I mean, there’s a special bond between a girl and her grandfather.
My whole life I’ve imagined my grandad being at my wedding, and he promised he’d pay for any wedding car I liked. But now it’s likely he won’t be there, seen as me and SO aren’t engaged yet.
So now I’m a mess, my nan has suggested to my mum and uncles that we grandchildren don’t go to see him, because he’s ‘a shell of the person he was’ according to Mum, I won’t see him ever again, he won’t be at our wedding, and I don’t want SO to think that him proposing will help give my grandad the power to keep going!
I don’t know how to feel about that, I think that would be the worst thing now is for SO to propose, just so that my grandad has something to ‘live for’, and that I might get the opportunity to have him there when we get married.
Which frankly, isn’t going to happen, we’ve already said that we’re going to get married in 2016, because that’s when we’ll be ready financially and our home will be finished.
I’m not looking for answers, I’m just a bit of a mess.
I had to beg my mum to stop talking through my sobs on the phone.