- 8 years ago
- Wedding: May 2009
please, hive, pray for us…
i’m in tears right now, because my sister has her 15 year old party in two weeks (it’s like a big deal here in Mex, like a wedding w/o the groom), and we can’t afford to go.
we live in another city, 8 hours away from where the party is going to be held, so we need to pay tickets, new clothes, and gifts. we’ve been saving to attend, since we practically live paycheck to paycheck every month (both of us have jobs, but we get paid rather poorly), we do not have credit cards (we’re against them) and my husband started feeling sick this past month, so practically everything we had saved went on studies, drugs, doctors, etc. he’s much better now, fortunately.
so we got paid yesterday, make numbers, and we found out that only one of us can attend. that’s why i’m crying, ’cause i so want both of us to go and we can’t, because we don’t have enough money.
he said that i can go, that i have to go because she’s my sister, and he’ll stay. that when we have enough money, we’ll go together. but this selfish little me want him to go so badly that i started crying at this decision, and it’s hitting me hard, because it’s my sister’s party and i want my husband to be next to me…plus, it doesn’t help that i have a big family that find on critisizing a pleasure and i know that if my husband doesn’t come with me, they’ll start gossipping about it, and i hate to think of it.
so i’m feeling so down that all i can think of is that i hate my job, this economy, that we can’t afford anything, we’ve been married for 5 months and we have an almost empty house, i have a master and i work as a secretary because there are no jobs out there… and i’m just feeling so sad…
and at the same time i think that my husband is being so sweet and kind enough to do not think of himself and let me go alone, and he will stay at home with no money, and i just H A T E that i cannot do anything.
i’m sorry i’m being such a bummer… i just wanted to vent. please pray for us.