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    ladyartichoke       UK

    And I am emotionally exhausted.  My brothers and I sat with her in the hospital for over 24 hours so my Dad (and her other son) could get there to say their final goodbyes.

    I've never felt so overwhelmed, or so young.  Too young to have had to deal with this.  But I wouldn't change it for the world.  I had some moments with her, bonding moments I've never had with her throughout my entire life.

    Sadly, she hung around to long.  We got numerous calls saying she was close, but then she'd surprise us.  So happy she is at peace now, she went silently.  I desperately didn't want her to suffer.

    Yes I want sympathy, and virtual cuddles.  SO is away for work and I'm contemplating the meaning of life alone. Prayers and virtual cuddles would be much appreciated!

     
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    abbie017    March 16, 2013  

    So sorry to hear that.  Take comfort in the memories you have with her, and know she is at peace in a better place.  Lots of prayers, hugs, and good thoughts going your way!

     
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    MissBoPeep       New England

    I'm so sorry, ladyartichoke.  ((hugs))

     
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    KatNYC2011    September 24, 2011   London, UK (american expat)

    Big hugs to you and lots of sympathy. Even when we know it is for the best, it is very hard to say goodbye.

    I lost my grandmother (and last grandparent) 1 year ago in October. Unfortunately I was living in NY at the time while she was living in CA. She was in her 90s and had had a wonderful life. Two days before she died, my mom had me call her and just tell her how much I loved her and that my then FI and I were happy and doing well. It was a call to say goodbye and let her know it was OK to go.

    Making that call was one of the hardest things I've ever done, but I am so thankful that I had the opportunity to do it. 

    So big hugs and cuddles to you. 

     
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    HisIrishPrincess    March 23, 2012  

    BIG HUGS to you today.  I've sat with two people I loved very much, at the very end and while it's so very painful to have lost them, they no longer are in pain.  It sounds like your grandmother was a wonderful and caring person, after all three of her grandchildren made sure she wasn't alone. How very kind and loving of the three of you.  ((((HUGS))))

     
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    coffeegal85    August 11, 2012   Ohio

    I am so sorry for your lost.   Losing someone is never easy.  Sending virtual hugs and cuddles your way!

     
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    purple_orchids    October 6, 2012   Maryland

    I am so sorry to hear about your loss! Sending Big Hugs to you today! 

     
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    jocember    August 17, 2013   Syracuse, NY

    I am so sorry. HUGE hugs to you, death is never easy to deal with no matter who it is.

     
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    ladyartichoke       UK

    Thank you all so much for your support.  I agree that whilst I know it's the right thing, and that I knew it was coming it doesn't make the reality any easier.

    She made it to 91!  That's pretty good going.

    @HisIrishPrincess:  Nice of you to say, but honestly, I wouldn't have had it any other way :)

     
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    bakerella    September 11, 2010   Toronto, ON

    ((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) I'm so sorry sweetie. My grandmother passed away 2 years ago, I know how tough it is. I still miss her. But I know she's here with me, in my heart. My grandmother too was a tough lady, and I can't tell you the number of "Come say your goodbye" phone calls I got, and she still hung on. Honestly, she was such an active, vibrant woman, I couldn't stand to see her in that bed and like you, it was so hard to see her suffer. I'm glad she's at peace now. I keep a photo of her in my kitchen since she was such a phenomenal baker and cook, and that's where she was always happiest. I call her my kitchen angel :) I always like to think that when I'm in the kitchen doing my thing she's smiling and proud of me. It gets easier I promise. You'll find your way to pay tribute to her, and you'll always hold her close to you.

    More ((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

     
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    ladyartichoke       UK

    @KatNYC2011:  Letting her know she could go was really important.  The last time I saw her I told her to have a good sleep.  She didn't pass until my Dad left the room.  It was like she didn't want them to see her go.

     
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    brittsnead23    July 23, 2011   Canada

    I am so sorry for your loss!  Grandmothers are very special people and we are lucky as grandaughters that we get to have such a special bond with them.

    You did such a great thing by sitting with her yesterday and those are moments that you will never regret, you gave her peace, love and comfort.  You sound like you were such a great grandaughter.

    I lost my Grandma at 18, she was my last grandparent, 8 years ago and I still get emotional when I am doing something that reminds me of her.  I also just lost my MIL a month ago and we were by her side for the last six months and in the final hours.  It's so hard watching someone that you love knowing that they will not be around much longer but also we took great comfort in knowing that we did everyting that we could and got to tell her everything that we needed to.

    BIG HUGS

     
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    KatNYC2011    September 24, 2011   London, UK (american expat)

    @ladyartichoke:  It really was. It was so hard not to say "I hope you feel better soon" and just say "Sleep well and I love you."

    My mom and her brother were both there, and they said after my grandmother had the phone calls from my sister and me she very peacefully slipped into unconsciousness and passed another day later.

    As hard as it is to let a loved one go, there is some comfort in knowing they went in peace.

     
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    Cash000    December 2, 2011   Canada

    I'm sorry for your loss. Death is so hard to comprehend. At times liuke this, I know nothing I really say can be that comforting, so I'll give you a BIG ol' HUG, and let you know, it's going to get better. Hang in there! XO

     
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    inspiredcreationsbyhaley    August 3, 2013   Tampa, FL and Portland, OR

    ((hugs))  You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.

     
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    Cash000    December 2, 2011   Canada

    I'm sorry for your loss. Death is so hard to comprehend. At times liuke this, I know nothing I really say can be that comforting, so I'll give you a BIG ol' HUG, and let you know, it's going to get better. Hang in there! XO

     
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    bakerella    September 11, 2010   Toronto, ON

    @ladyartichoke:  I had that moment with my grandmother too. She was clearly miserable, but I think she wanted to stay for everyone else. I went to visit her and told her it was okay to go, that we all loved her and would keep her in our hearts, but it was okay. She passed on the night of our engagement dinner and at first I was so upset that my dad had been with us instead of with her, but then I realized she would have been so happy that we were all together celebrating and sharing a great meal. It was perfect because family was the most important thing to her.

     
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    luvmyDwight    April 14, 2012   Gilbert, AZ

    I'm so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine the pain you are feeling. When ever I read a post like this the mother in me just wants to crawl through the computer screen and craddle, hug and stroke your hair and tell you everything is going to be ok.

    yikes! sorry if that sounds creepy. (((hugs to you)))

     
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    78h2o    October 8, 2011   MD (wedding was in OR)

    So sorry for your loss. My grandmother meant the world to me and I miss her everyday... so I can imagine what you're going through.

    Hang on to your happy memories - the nice thing is that they'll stay with you forever!

    Hugs!

     
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    TheFutureMcBride    August 2010   Virginia

    Hugs!

     
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    dolphi99    May 14, 2011   Minnesota

    I'm so sorry for your loss, I know how hard it is losing a loved one, so I can imagine what you are going through. (((HUGS)))

     
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    GroovyHippieChick    October 20, 2012   My Happy Place

    I'm so sorry.  I lost my Gramma 5 years ago yesterday.  She was my best friend.

    I hope that your happy memories will help you through this difficult time

    ((hugs))

     
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    Dandelion D    April 13, 2013   Virginia

    I'm so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts.

     
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    HappierKate    September 29, 2012  

    I'm so sorry for your loss, my prayers are with you.

     
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    ladyartichoke       UK

    @luvmyDwight:  I like the creepiness today!

    Thank you all so so much.

     
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    Bubu82    October 1, 2011   Indianapolis, IN

    I'm so, so sorry for your loss. But how lovely that you were able to be there with her right up to the end. I'm sure she felt your love and support.

     
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    I am sorry for your loss.   ((HUGS))

     
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    Evie19    January 21, 2012  

    Hugs!! I am so sorry to hear about your loss. Im sure you filled her life with so much joy and although it is so hard to let go, I hope that thought gives you comfort.

     
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    brighteyedgirl    August 31, 2012   Ontario, Canada

    I'm so sorry for your loss!

     
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    Miss Feather    September 15, 2012   Nova Scotia, Canada

    Im so sorry darlin, I was super close with my grandma so I know what you going through **hugs**

     
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    soyjoy222    June 1, 2012   PA

    I am thinking of you...I dread the day when I dont have my gram anymore. I can't imagine how you feel...Sending you lots of love today. Hang in there. <3

     
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    dcdt212    July 19, 2014  

    It's so good that you got to say your goodbyes. I'm sure it helped her pass peacefully also. Allow yourself to grieve and then comfort others if they need it. I'm sorry for your loss. 

     
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    Lyndzo    August 25, 2012   Milton, Ontario

    I'm very sorry to hear of your loss, my condolences to you and your family.  It is so hard to watch a loved one go through something so tough (I experienced it last year). Just know that she is at peace and cherish those memories.

    *VIRTUAL HUGS*

     
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    ladyartichoke       UK

    Someone at college just undermined my grief.  I explained I had lost my phone and I needed it because she'd just died.  His response:  "good for you, why do I care?"  So hurt.

    Thank you all for being so supportive, I wish the real world was full of beautiful bees like you!!

     
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    spaneshal    October 19, 2012   UK

    @ladyartichoke:  I'm sorry to hear the loss of your grandmother. I have the priveledge of still having my nan around and I really hope she will see me get married in September. I will be devestated when she goes, although shes now 90 it doesnt get easier.

    As for people who don't understand, it will happen to them - they too one day will lose someone they love, and maybe then they will understand. Until then, take the better road and grieve, find comfort in the rest of your family grieving and work through it together and just try and get on with life as she would have wanted :)

    My grandad passed away 12 years ago, and I still miss him terribly, but time makes the hurt easier, and you remember the good times more.

    My condolences to you, be strong like I know you are

    Best wishes xx

     
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    MissTX    May 17, 2013   Texas

    Sending positive vibes and prayers your way maam! I have only had one relative pass away and it was my paternal grandmother. I didn't get to see her before but she did write me a note and I got to speak to her on the phone :( I know how hard it can be. I'm sorry girl but she is up there smiling down on you! :)

     
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    AmeliaBedelia    March 3, 2012   Georgia

    @ladyartichoke:  Aw, sorry people are so insensitive sometimes. It's a tough thing to understand until you've been there yourself. Unfortunately, I can totally understand.  I'm soooo sorry for your loss and send lots of positive vibes and **hugs** your way. I will also say that being there provides an incredible amount of closure that some other people aren't lucky enough to have, so there is a positive side to being there. And as you've said, you wouldn't have it any other way. :) She knew she was loved.

     
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    jayebaby    August 24, 2012   Glendale, CA

    I'm so sorry sweetie :( We're all here for you!

     

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