- 7 years ago
- Wedding: August 2011
You know the movie “Last Chance Harvey”. That is my Dad. He is a sad middle aged man that makes you feel bad for him because of the life choices he has made. I cry everytime I see movies like these because I wish I had a better relationship with my Father, but I don’t. And I probably never will.
I had been putting off this conversation for months now, but tonight I just picked up the phone and got it over with. Tonight I told my Father he wouldn’t be walking me down the aisle. His voice faultered and he kept repeating that he was glad that I cleared everything up for him. I am imagining him laying in bed tonight and sad and hurt because his youngest daughter has said hurt him as much as a child can.
I had hoped to feel relief when I got off the phone, but instead I cried. I felt terrible. I stand by my decision to have my Step-Father give me away, as he became my Dad when I was thirteen and my mother married him. He came with my Mom to all of my school functions, he cheered me on, he encouraged my dreams and helped shaped who I am today. I just hadn’t counted on feeling so badly about hurting my Father.
Did anyone else have to have a similar conversation?