- 2 years ago
- Wedding: September 2014 - Merritt Winery
Greetings, Bees! A fellow Bee created a thread about how miserable she is while wedding planning. This got me thinking about what I experience during this process. So this has happened to me frequently (just about every time!) now. I guess I just never acknowledged it to myself until I took a moment to really be present in what I am feeling. Whenever someone (non-family/close friend) asks me about the wedding and/or how planning is going, I have a physical reaction while we are talking. I get really hot. I can feel myself starting to turn red and I start to sweat a little. This planning process has not been fun for me at all. I haven’t really even gotten excited about it. The only time I got really excited was when i find something really cool and cheap! and when FI’s surprise guest comfirmed his attendance. I was so excited because I was just imagining how happy FI would be. I can’t really figure out why I’m not more excited. The planning process hasn’t been what I would describe as too stressful. I have had some family drama, but that is pretty much fizzled out. My Bridesmaids are great. I have enough money to pay for this thing. FI has been involved in every aspect and is loving it. He is really excited and wants me to be excited. BUT I’M NOT! Like I said earlier, I am really excited about the surprise for FI…and that’s it! I don’t like being the center of attention and I get really anxious about new things. I have a hard time staying in a moment without worrying about what will happen in the next. Has anyone else experienced feelings like this? If so, how did you or were you able to overcome them for at least one day!? Thanks for listening to my whining, Bees!