- 4 years ago
- Wedding: April 2013
Now I’m normally a relatively positive person. Our wedding was beautiful, I’m married to the best man I could imagine who is so incredibly wonderful and I’m so thankful for everything we had for our wedding, hiccups and all. But…
I just spent the last 2 hours looking in my apartment for my husbands cuff links. I had them special ordered to be made like drum sets. They were really nice and he really liked them. The photographer didn’t get a picture which I was bummed about. So I spent the last 2 hours looking for them in all the places I didn’t check before and can’t find them anywhere. I’ve been looking for them since we got back from the honeymoon but just looked in my wedding craft area for the first time today and looked thoroughly. No luck. We asked my mom and she said she saw them in our apartment after the wedding she *thinks* when she was dog sitting for us but can’t remember where and I just can’t find them and I’m fairly certain they are just gone.
That with our not so great photos from the wedding. I mean some of them came out great but… The one and only picture I really wanted was of my husband when I walked out. I told everyone this time and time again, they knew I really wanted that picture and the rest I really wasn’t picky about. So when I came out, I thought for sure the picture would be taken so when the coordinator was talking to me when I walked out I was looking at her, looking at everything because well I was so shy to see how my husband looked when I walked out and I didn’t look at him directly until I was 1/2 way down the aisle and my nerves had calmed a bit. So I have no clue what his reaction was seeing me, one of the MAIN reasons we did not do a first look was because I thought for sure we would have that photo. But apparently the lighting was not ideal and the pictures just didn’t come out right. Now I will never know what my husband looked like when I walked down the aisle. I know it was partly my fault for not looking at him but I knew if I saw him emotional I would break out and start sobbing. But it really gets to me that I will never know how he looked when he first saw me on our wedding day. Maybe we should have done the first look
The bouttanier I made for my husband has gotten all worn out and is in rough shape now and… Maybe I’m just emotional but I’m a very “keepsake” kind of girl and I REALLY wanted those cuff links and bouttanier to put with my dress veil and bouquet. I really wanted that picture because I know it would have been a really good one, I know my husband and likely it would have been one of those big smiles fighting back the tears pictures but we don’t have it now. The pictures from our vase ceremony were ALL extremely blurry and we only have a couple pictures taken with me and my husband and they are bad, the only decent pic we have of the two of us was taken by a friend and it’s fuzzy but both our eyes are open and we’re not making a goofy face…
I don’t like one picture of me from the wedding day… This may be my fault though because I put on quite a bit of weight this year but when I look back at the pictures it makes me wonder just how not good I looked as opposed to how good I thought I looked.
I’m just broken hearted over those cuff links and that picture. I tried to just forget about the picture but it’s hard, I tried to find the cuff links so at least I would have that but they are no where to be found… Sorry I don’t really know what the point of this post is but to vent, I don’t want anyone I know IRL to know I feel this way, especially about the photographer since it was a gift and I’m honestly not all that upset about the pictures and am thankful for that gift 100%, I’m just emotional about certain things now…
A note to all future bees… Keep an eye on the cuff links and be sure to write down every picture you want for your photographer, especially the most important one you want.
OK end of rant, now I’ll go back to just being thrilled I’m married to such a wonderful man and we’ve got the rest of our lives to keep keepsakes and we are blessed in so many ways.