Post # 1
I posted about this before, but my god mother is very sick with terminal cancer. It has spread to many areas of her body. it started as breast cancer and just couldn’t be controlled because of how late it was found. it has been a very hard few years for her and even though we all knew that it was an eventuality that she would pass, I don’t think any of us really let ourselves realize just how ugly the end stages would be.
She was admitted to the hospital today due to an infection of some kind and mouth sores and a lot of pain in her throat. So much so that she couldn’t eat or swallow her pills anymore. She is dropping weight at an alarming rate and it’s just not a good situation all around. I’m leaving work early today to pick up her little boy who is the same age as my son and knowing she will never see him grow up and that he is going to be without his wonderful mother just makes me so sad I can’t even describe it. I just know my heart is going to be breaking over and over again in the coming days and weeks. I am very close to my god mother. She is my mom’s best friend and is basically like a sister to her and has been around for my whole life. Im 29 so it’s a friendship that has really stood the test of time for my mother.
It’s a very hard moment to go from “well one day it will get bad and we won’t be able to stop it anymore” to “that day is today and we need to start planning for the end”. It’s like you know it will happen but it’s still hard to accept when it starts to really become reality and “eventually” becomes a time that is in the very near future.
I was sure she would make it to my wedding and now I don’t think she will. Or maybe im just being a pessimist. The selfish part of me is also sad that during this last few weeks up to the wedding instead of being able to just be ridiculously happy, I’m just incredibly sad. Everyone is. It’s just all really hard.
I know I can count on you bees to send some extra love, positivity and prayers our way. Especially for my god mother, she needs it really badly.
Post # 3
I’m so sorry–I will definitely keep you, her, and your family in my prayers!
Post # 4
My heart breaks for you and your family. *hugs* Prayers for you and your family.
Post # 5
praying for her and your whole families
Post # 6
@stardustintheeyes: Prayers to you and your family! I’m so sorry. I hope your wedding day is lovely and that you are able to enjoy yourself!
Post # 7
Im so so sorry you are going through this. My mom passed from cancer when I was very young, and I took care of my grandfather who was diagnosed and only two weeks later passed. The only thing I can tell you is that she will know when its time, and make sure when she starts to say her goodbyes, you take full advantage of it. My biggest regrets were telling family “no no youre going to be fine, we are here for you” and then they slowly slip into a coma. 🙁 Again, I am so terribly sorry.. I know my advice is sad and very hard to hear, but I hope I help you in some small way.
Post # 12
- Wedding: November 2014 - Philadelphia, PA
@stardustintheeyes: I’m so sorry to hear about your god mother. Definitely sending good thoughts and prayers your way!
Post # 13
Oh sweetie, I’m so sorry. Big hugs, and lots of thoughts & prayers.
Post # 14
@stardustintheeyes: You and your godmother (and the entire family) will definitely be in my thoughts.
Post # 15
@stardustintheeyes: sending love and prayers your way xxox
Post # 16
Thanks again ladies. I had a nice visit with her over the long weekend and while I enjoyed every moment, it was a hard visit to have with some very tough conversations that took place. Not to mention that it is physically very apparent that her time left is limited. She is in good spirits though and is just soaking up every moment with everyone and she truly just seems at peace with everything. She really wants us all to just love her, love each other, and for us to make sure that we live life and always include her children (which is a no brainer!). I think that was the hardest part. She had a talk with her oldest son (he’s 18) on saturday and was very up front with him about everything. He’s different now, you can tell, and my heart just hurts for him. He’s just so young…. her littlest boy is only 8. He knows whats happening but i don’t think he actually realizes ya know? for him my heart hurts even more. Her husband is just a trooper. He has no idea what’s what at this point. She ran everything and he’s just lost trying to figure out all the things to take care of now and after she’s gone. My mom and I are helping him with that stuff though so we are all confident that everything will work out in that regard.
She was able to go to a restaurant and sit outside and enjoy some fresh air and good company yesterday and we are all so thankful that she’s still able to have at least some kind of quality of life at this point.
Thank you again for all of your prayers and well wishes bees!