- 5 years ago
- Wedding: October 2012
I would say that my weight has yo-yo’d 20lbs or so for the last 10 years at least and I have always been exercising, I just really really like food, bad food. I will decide one day that enough is enough and I will start ramping up my gym trips and eating a bit healthier, it seems to work, or it did, until I got into my late twenties. Unfortunately, that is also when I got engaged. Society has an idea for what a woman should look like, and by no means have I ever been one to conform to society, but I know what my ideal weight is for me to feel comfortable and feel that I look amazing. That weight is 20lbs lighter than what I am, on a 5’4 frame, and what I was on my wedding day. I just got our photos back from our wedding day, and just as I suspected I look much larger in them than how I want to look. I never dreamed of having the extra 20lbs on my wedding day. It is enough to make me depressed, it is enough to make me want to crawl into a hole until I come out 20lbs thinner. The day was amazing in the moment, but the photos are putting a dark cloud over my memories. I don’t even want to share most of them. Has anyone else out there felt like this?