- 5 years ago
- Wedding: August 2014
I’m a major procrastinator. Any others?
For example – right now I’m stressing out about my yoga classes. I took a yoga teacher training course and we’re supposed to complete 20 yoga classes outside of the teacher training (of the same style of yoga) within a year of graduation (I graduated June of 2012) in order to get our teaching certification.
Have I done the 20 classes? No.
Have I done even one? No.
I’m seeing my yoga teacher tomorrow because she’s in town and I’m going to do 2 classes with her. I’m just super embarrassed to show her my form and show her that I have done nothing when I’ve had over a year already to do just one (teacher training started Sep 2011).
I can make the excuse that since this type of yoga isn’t super common, that its hard to get my schedule to line up with the other teachers. I could also say that I just have been struggling with money.
But none of those are true. There are times when I have had the money and the time and I didn’t go. Why? Well, mostly because I didn’t even think of it. I’ve been focused on my own business that I forget until its too late. But sometimes I just put it off.
I even feel like skipping tomorrow… but I’m going to tell FI to make me even if I try to say I have a headache. Or I’m tired. Or whatever… unless I’m puking my guts out or have blood gushing out of me – make me go.
I just feel like everyone probably thinks I’m lazy, or that I’m avoiding them, or whatever. I’m terrified of people thinking I’m lazy. My behavior would say that I am, but I swear I have some kind of anxiety about doing things and then I have more anxiety when I don’t do what I need to do. (Even at my work, sometimes I lie when I’m asked if I’m available to come in because I just don’t want to leave the house.)
I’m a procrastinator… and very avoidant. And possibly have an anxiety problem. Can I hear some other stories to make me feel better about myself? Haha.