- 4 years ago
- Wedding: July 2014
Well I’ve taken to day drinking, and I don’t mind if I do. Let me back track….
I graduated from college in May with a teaching degree and my field is fairly competitive to say the least. I moved with FI to Texas because it’s his two years to attend grad school (the following two years are mine). Texas won’t touch me because I have an out of state certificate. I worked my A-S-S off durring my degree to help my chances at getting hired, but Texas brough that to a dead hault. Am I resentful? Yes. Do I have good reason? IMO yes, but at the same time I understand, and at the same time I dont…get my whirlwind?!
Well My job search has really screwed with my head. What could I have done better, What could I have joined, Who should I have called, What did I miss that could have helped me!? And (after two weeks of self-loathing) I can say that I did everything I could…My whole out box is nothing but hundreds of e-mails about trying to get employment in this great ol’ state. I cant beat my self up about it. I tried.
Now that it’s crunch time for these schools and all that is left over for the hiring is people who are bottom of the barrel texas certifieds vs. out of staters (who are more than likely higher quality candidtates), schools are starting to call me…
My problem is this whole thing is driving me NUTS! I don’t know any one here, I worked my BUTT off durring my degree to network and have an amaznig resume- which doesnt matter bc I took my tests in the wrong state. Thank GOD I have my fur babies, it’s hot here, the bugs are HUGE, they don’t have sweet tea here, and don’t sell dukes mayonnaise!????? WTF am I supposed to use for potato salad!??? I realize I’m showing my back woods roots but GEEZE this is texas…… Can ya’ll just put a little sugar in my tea when it’s hot so that when it cools, I’ll have a nice glass of heaven.
When it comes down to it, I’ve put my self out there for every school system in a 2 hour radius and I feel rejected. But I need to realize it doesn’t mean I’m bad at what I aim to do. This is the wine talking…..A WHOLE BOTTLE.not.good.
And did I mention I’ve gained like 10 lbs!??? and my hair looks like crap. Do we all have these days or is this the quarter life crisis? Atleast wedding planning make me happy OH WAIT I’M UNEMPLOYEED NVM!