- 2 years ago
- Wedding: April 2015
I guess this means I’m out of the running for wedding planning, at least for a while. My FI and I have to piece together our broken future right now, as gloomy as that sounds. I’ve been crying since I got home so I guess I just wanted to vent…I don’t need advice. We’re already contacting people about this, but that doesn’t help how I feel right now.
I’ve made some threads here a while back about the problems going on at work, namely the water issue(not letting us drink water in a hot, humid factory) among other things.
Today our co-worker told us his chest was hurting this morning. We know he’s had multiple strokes, so we kept an eye on him. That place…that…fucking hellhole, for some reason, liked to target only a couple of people. He was one of them. He and I were having a private conversation about how we feel we should have a vote for where people are placed, because the current set up is hindering everyone’s progress. Our resident “lineleader” comes up and starts screaming at him like she usually does, and threatening to take his job away for trying to do “her job”.
She flies off the handle like a lunatic and calls a meeting in the middle of production, halting the line and causing a back up. She explains why things are the way they are. My FI calmly points out that this isn’t working. She asks everyone “Does anyone want to lose their job today?”
I have a panic attack(I have an anxiety disorder) and start hypervenelating. I lean over the bar and basically have a meltdown because I’ve been hearing this same abusive garbage for months straight now. I’ve left the drama at the door. I’ve always spoken in a calm, civil voice….today I lost it. I saw my co-worker was having chest pains from being screamed at(literally, screamed) and I broke down out of combination of panic and anger.
So while the line leader is threatening people, FI and I calmly go off to the side and talk about if we can afford to quit. We determine, yes, we can. It will be hard, but this job is killing us. We’re not even being treated like we’re human beings! We’re threatened daily, not allowed to drink water(and my health has declined over this. I’ve had UTIs weekly and I’ve been throwing up at work) and basically treated like a used gum wrapper on the bottom of someone’s shoe, no matter how hard we work. I know what hard work is. I’ve worked 14 hr shifts for most of my damn life, don’t treat me like I’m lazy. I know how to bite my lip and treat people with respect, don’t treat me like I’m stupid and disorderly. I know I’m a good worker. My(now former) boss has told me I’m a good worker and told me last week he’d write me a reccomendation letter after I asked for one(I sensed the storm coming…)
Anyway, we decide yes, we’re quitting, today. Our co-worker comes over and tells us he’s been fired. Like I said, they’ve had it out for him since day one. Supervisor is in HOT WATER for accusing co-worker for “being on drugs” because he was shaking from being ANGRY. Who wouldn’t shake from anger for being berated every single day? We go look for our boss to tell him our side of the story before we quit. Supervisor and lineleader are literally chasing us down in the building like they’re hunting us, find us and DEMAND a meeting RIGHT NOW. We say “after we talk to our boss” but they don’t let us and supervisor goes running to our boss to basically tattle on us.
We go up to our boss anyway. I feel bad, our poor boss looks really stressed out. I tell him “I quit.” He replies, looking very sad. “You quit?” and I say “For health reasons, I’m sorry.”
and then we leave after our co-worker tells our other supervisor what happened. Some co-workers ask about it, having witnessed the lineleader threaten people. They say they don’t blame us, they want to leave, too. So…we shake hands, and we drive away.
I have never been treated so badly in a work environment in my life. I don’t expect to be pampered, but I was made to feel WORTHLESS.
On top of everything else, my FI is physically disabled. In order to work here, his case worker told this company a list of rules about what is acceptable, what he can/can’t do and the HAVE to follow them in order to hire him. He worked there for a year no problem because they followed the rules. This supervisor and line leader came in and threw that out the window. He has problems with his spine. I used to work across from him so I could lift heavy things for him or do anything else he needs because he CAN’T. They made me move far away and forbade me from leaving the line, making him carry heavy boxes by himself. He can barely walk today because of them.
I also later found out as we were driving home, that my FI saw line leader laughing at me when I was having my panic attack, like it’s just so funny…
So let’s see. FI is hurt at work. Co-worker is on the verge of another stroke. My panic disorder is out of control.
No job is worth killing yourself over…
I know it’s foolhardy to quit your job without another lined up in this economy. I’ve told myself that from day one…but I can’t. I’ve been crying every day for weeks now. I can’t sleep. I’m constantly sick…
Is the nightmare finally over? Hope I can find another job soon…