- 6 years ago
- Wedding: September 2012
Sigh. I don’t expect anyone to be able to solve my problems I just need a place to write them down. And really in so many ways I’m so blessed.
First, although my dad is a wonderful person he can also be a very mean person. He’s always had kind of a short temper but ever since he started taken meds for Epilspy he’s been 10 times worse. Little things set him off. Right now he’s super upset over some little things but to top it all off he also doesn’t like my FFIL. I’m not really sure why as he’s never actually met the man, but FFIL sometimes comments on my FB and my dad doesn’t like that. Now my dad has a hard time getting along with many people especially my grandparents (mother’s parents) so I know its more him then FFIL. But I’m so completely afriad he may say something rude at my wedding or who knows it may come to physical blows. Even as a kid my dad occasionally crossed the line spanking vs. physical abuse. I know he loves me and loves his little girl but I have a hard time dealing with him.
The other problem I’m having right now. FI has been unemployed on off for the past year or so. He’s been working SO hard to find positions but the ones he’s had have been temp work. He’s working at a temp job right now and has been for the past 8 months. He’s continuing to interview but is getting discouraged by his lack of progress. I try so hard to be his rock and biggest supporter but truth is I’m dissapointed too. It makes me just as sad, but I feel like I can’t share that with him as one of us has to be the strong one.
Top all that in with wedding planning, the fact that I’m middle of tax season and working 60 hour weeks, and divorced future in-laws who don’t get along with each other. I’m pretty spent.
My current job has already caused ulcers 2 of the 4+ years I’ve worked there. I just need a hug (vent)!