- Excited To Bee
- 6 years ago
- Wedding: May 2014
Helllo, I just needed to come somewhere that I could vent. I hope to have people in the same position as me that can maybe give me a metaphorical pat on the back and tell me im not alone.
I recently (well, 8mo. now) moved to the small town of Yuma, AZ to live with my boyfriend of a year+ from wonderful Austin, TX. He’s in law enforcement here and doesnt have the felxibility to move around much, so I figured that I needed to go back to school so I quit my job and moved out here.
This is where it gets tough, I am SO drained. I dont know if its because I havent been to school in 2+ years, or if I am sort of slightly depressed at living in such a crappy town or what it is. Im hoping somone else has has the same experience. Im trying SO hard, because of course I want to get all A’s, ive so far succeeded but I have had two tests this week and I dont feel too terribly confident about them. Of course, I am the kind of person where a 90 isnt enough, I want a 100 but I just feel like I put myself down until I get the grade. Does anyone else do this? Am I crazy? I stress myself out so much in fear of not being “perfect” and letting myself down, its making the rest of my life hurt. For example, I stress out until I have 0 homework left (which is never) and so I dont even get to enjoy a day off! I always have SO much to do, I literally have 14hr days with maybe a 2-3hr break in there for FOOD, nevermind personal time. Im out the door by 8-9am and dont go to bed until 12-1 in the morning when I finally finish up everything I need to do for the day! I mentioned earlier that I had two tests earlier this week, well one yesterday and one today and then today I was surprised with an Algebra take home test thats due tomorrow and when I finally get to drop that off tomorrow I have to go to work for 12hrs, and then go back to school on Thursday for 7hrs of CLASSTIME alone. Ugh. I dont even work a full job, and im not trying to plan a wedding. Maybe I am being a huge baby but I guess I just need to hear if anyone else struggles with this stuff? I think it has a lot to do with high expectations I have for myself. I’ve read about some of you other girls who talk about getting 3.5s and I think to myself, I should be able to do it too then! I just need some friendly advice!
Time to get back to work.. : )
Ps. Share your class load? I’m a Business Major, focus on Management.
Intro to Film Studies (this is one of my most intensive clases, go figure)
Legal Environments of Business