- 6 years ago
- Wedding: April 2012
I have a resentment for moving to England.
Recent hypnotherapy helped me understand the resentment isn’t the location per se, but how the place links to SO’s broken family. Resentment comes from feeling I had married ‘downwards’. Feeling shortchanged. Feeling unloved in a foreign country. DH’s done really really well for himself, coming from a really troubled family background. My quality of life is not really compromised after moving here, but other things are such as: not having a good close knit family as my support network (cry), family falling out & severing ties with each other and a whole lot of other ghetto issues, which are all family related.
I get upset and angry when I see how his family treats each other, esp how they treat my Darling Husband. I feel 10times more upset and angry when I see how it’s killing my Darling Husband inside, it hurts me so much to see him hurt by people who really should be giving unconditional love & support.
Darling Husband is taken advantage of, financially. We are taken advantage of, emotionally. I want to just give up and not care because Darling Husband & I are so in love and he treats me like a princess. But I can’t, family has always been such an important aspect to me, and I have never been exposed to such a dysfunctional one before…
I’m trying to deal with it but something sparked the anger tonight and I’m not in a forgiving mood. I hate myself like this because I could really learn to enjoy this country if not for hate by association.