- 4 years ago
- Wedding: February 2014
Hi… so I got engaged in December of last year, and we are getting married next February! Yay! I’m super happy to finally be getting married, as I’ve been with him for a few years and love him so much… and I’m 33. I’m sad because both my parents are deceased, my mom died when I was 14, my dad died five years ago… and because of the will etc my brother no longer speaks to me. I don’t have a great extended family…so I’m essentially alone. Although my fiance is supportive around the issues that this wedding are bringing up for me, he doesn’t really understand. I don’t have anyone to walk me down the aisle (lets not go to uncle or friend)… and I didn’t have my mom help me with my dress… I”m just sad.
Another little issue with my fiance is that he is cheap 🙂 this is making me sad too. We are not having a super expensive wedding, but its getting to the point where I am afraid to bring things up to him. I either get a snarky response or we have a little fight (not bad but makes me sadder about my whole situation). His parents are helping which is awesome, his mom mentioned the no dad thing on the weekend…which I appreciate that she realizes…but embarrased for myself that I am even having this conversation, like why me? We can’t ask them for any more than they are already giving because they are being generous considering their daughter got engaged last month.
I’m currently trying to book a photographer for three hours, I have two in mind but I’m trying to think of time frames in my head and somehow three seems not enough.
I think I just needed to vent this.