- 6 years ago
This is a vent/rant. It’s more about college than weddings/marriage so if that offends you since this a wedding forum, hit the back button.
Okay, so I started college this year in spring semester (I’m 19) and got enagaged over Christmas break. (I know the whole you’re too young spiel. I got it “too immature, doesn’t know what she’s getting into, it won’t last, I give it six months…” I’ve heard it all. That aside.) I work really hard at school, non-stop, and it does affect time with my FI but he completely understands as he is a senior in the same university. He will be a forensic chemist graduating with a 3.5 or higher. I am doing fine in 4 out of my 5 classes. All A’s and one F. This teacher has just bombarded us with work and warned us if we were in Psychology B104 due to her workload and psych’s busy work, we would have to drop one of the two. I didn’t have that option since that would put me at part-time student status and affect my insurance, taxes, scholorships, etc. Normally I can deal with a lot of work in a lot of classes very well. I homeschooled myself through my junior and senior year of high school without a parent through a major university’s program. School is kind of my thing. I’ve talked to other college students, and no one has seen a teacher give this amount of homework and are in utter shock when I show them. Even ones that have taken the same class with a different teachers. Literally, close to five hours per night on a good night. Did I mention its English w131? Basic level. On a side not, if it hadn’t been for math and science in high school, I would have graduated with a 4.0. English is my jam.
Between all that and planning a wedding (which I have done very little to none), I am about to lose it. I was always a great student, but I am absolutely miserable in school right now and have spent countless nights crying like a big baby about it all. (yes, I did just admit that on a thread) We were getting ready to turn in various essays for our midterm when I found out I had been missing online assignments she never told us about. Much to my and most of the class’s bewilderment and rage. I am failing the class no matter what with these assignments, as are 70% of my classmates. It all boils down to I am unhappy. Period. This class is awful, undeniably, but I don’t enjoy anything about college life at all. Even though I get good grades, I am just apathetic about being there. And it’s putting me into a depression. That is affecting my relationship with everyone, most importantly, my fiance.
This leads me to my next thought. I have always been really interested in hair and have people ask me to do it for them quite a bit. I also love talking with people and hearing their stories, etc. Plus it would be pulling in money to the household sooner, and I would be making what I made as my college major. Paul Mitchell has a school close to my current campus. I just applied, but my fiance seems really disappointed in me. He says he knew I could do the college thing, but what if I don’t want to? He said he would support and love me no matter what, however. I’m not one to quit anything, but I don’t want to be miserable. I’m really confused about this, ladies. I feel like I need to suck it up and deal with it, but maybe I’m just not cut out for college…
I really appreciate your comments.
Happy planning, ladies!