- 2 years ago
This is my first time posting here even though my wedding is VERY soon – it’s October 4. I just need to vent.
This whole process has not been the best for me. I’m definitely NOT a wedding planner at heart and really, I am looking forward to the planning being over. Also, I am having MAJOR body confidence issues surrounding my weight. I’m always been a curvy girl and have always loved my curves. It just irks me that as soon as someone gets engaged, they are expected to lose X amount of weight, etc. This outside societal expectations coupled with my body image has been an ongoing internal battle all through this process. I have gained weight, I am not at my best, but I am so excited to marry the man I am meant to be with. Why is it that I can’t just accept my body for the way it is and stop obsessing over it? I mean, let’s be real. It’s Sept 18 – I have less than 20 days until my wedding. It’s completely unrealistic to do anything about it now.
I guess I kinda feel like a failure. I am afraid of being the “fat” bride amongst all my beautiful and thin bridesmaids. I’m afraid of my wedding pictures. It’s tough. Even as I write this, I am having this internal battle. I also am afraid that my dress won’t fit.
Anyways, I don’t know what I’m looking for by posting this. I just want to let go of my demons and start looking forward to the big day. Has anyone been through this? Any words of wisdom? I just need support I suppose.
Thank you 🙂