- 6 years ago
- Wedding: May 2012
I think I just woke up on the wrong side of the bed today. Even when I got up, I was snippy to people. I snipped at my dad when I was eating breakfast. He wasn’t being mean or anything, just saying obvious stuff that one doesn’t need to answer.
Then, I realized that while I was out of town, he cleaned out one of my dressers and gave it away. Now, it’s an old dresser, I mainly use it to store things. Had he asked, I would have probably said yes. I just don’t like that it happened when I wasn’t home, and the fact that he went through my things. I was half tempted to leave some condoms in the other extra dresser, just in case he tries to do this again! I haven’t had a chance to talk to him yet about this, since his girlfriend has been around and I suspect he gave the furniture to her.
I went to a bridal shower today, and that was mostly fine. The only bad part was that my cousin’s little guy (who I love and adore) wasn’t very happy with me. He actually told me to get in my car and go home! He never talks to me like that. I know he was just tired, and little kids say those things, but with this funk that I’m in, I took it much more seriously than what I should. I even feel stupid typing that out.
Then, I found out my team lost in overtime today, and we’ve had to reschedule two wedding things because the weekend that we needed is booked. Then, I found out that our minister is actually out of town next weekend when we were hoping to meet. When I have been telling FI about this, I can hear the frustration in his vioce. FI is still living out of town, he’s stressed out because his thesis is due at the end of March. It’s getting really difficult to plan when he’s out of town and has limited time. Because we’ve both been busy, we haven’t been communicating very well when normally that is one of our strongest points.
I’m supposed to go out to dinner tonight, but I seriously just want to stay home. I know I am not in a great mood and any little thing can set me off. I’m just so tired of stressing out over things! Please tell me this is normal for brides to be feeling this way. I don’t feel any different towards FI, I love him with all my heart, but making all these decisions and trying to get everything in and not hurt anyone’s feelings is taking its toll.
Thanks for hanging through the long vent. It’s appreciated :-). I feel bad for venting, because even in my funk, I know in the grand scheme of things that this is small potatoes. Why does it always seem so big when you’re in the middle of it?