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I'm feeling BEYOND depressed lately. I have too much on my plate. My husband and I are planning a move across country, but I still have a job here. All my work is contracted out here for the next year so I have to be here weeks/months at a time to complete those gigs.  I won't have any place to live because no one in my family can take me for as long as I need to be here, and we can't afford a separate rent and a mortgage while we try to sell the house. My mom is an alchoholic and in the worst shape ever. Every day I worry one of my sister's is going to call and tell me she's finally gone and accidentally killed herself. I don't exaggerate when I say this... she recently got so drunk she jumped out a 2nd story window and broke almost every bone in her body and spent the last 3 months recovering only to go out and drink again. Now on top of everything, I just went to a salon and had a terrible experience, where i tried to go back to blonde and ended up with reddish brown completely fried hair. I cant stop crying, and I think the hair was just the last thing that I couldn't handle :(

@julies1949: That's such a great idea.  Here where I live, there are always all kinds of things in the local newspaper for families who live far away/have their own lives looking for someone to live with their aging parent to cook them meals, maybe do light cleaning 1-2x/week and just make sure they're taken care of should they fall or need to go to the hospital for typical aging stuff.

I'm so sorry for how you are feeling, but I definitely would recommend that you seek some counseling (especially Al-anon) and consider an antidepressant.  I've seen it work wonders and medication combined with therapy is sooo helpful in conquering depression.

Thanks Everyone. My mom has been to AA and just about every fancy rehab clinic within a 100-mile radius. She's even done six months in jail for drunk driving and that wasn't bottom. The bottom for her = dead. There is only so much we as friends/family members can do to help someone who clearly doesn't want to help themselves.

I took one last shot at fixing my hair yesterday. I spent 5 hours in a salon and now I'm golden bleach blonde :( It looks terrible and horribly fake, but at least it's all one color now I guess. I still want to cry when I think about it, but there is nothing more I can do, the hair is too too damaged. The salon I went to did this weird keratin treatment on it that cost $300 to try to restore it, then I get home and read up only to find out one of the known side effects of this treatment is all your hair falling out!? Are you kidding me?! I washed it all out as much as I could but I'll be happy if my hair isn't all falling out three days from now :( I seriously can't take anymore.

I wish going to stay with someone would completely solve things, but even if I could it would only save us the cost of utilities until we sold the house. I also won't have time to cook/clean or watch anyone's kids as my job is very labor intensive and I'll be working 12-14 hour shifts. My husband keeps talking about how broke we are going to be and I thought he was going to kill me because I spent so much money on the Keratin treatment that I ended up washing out now anyway. I'm going to try to call and get my money back today because they didn't warn me of the risks at all. For Pete's sake they put carcinogens on my head and didn't even tell me :(