- Big Truck
- 7 years ago
- Wedding: September 2012
Well…. I have to reconsider what the heck I’ve been thinking lately.
Last night, in my planning fury to get the date I want (see previous post), I emailed a venue and asked about pricing and availability. I looked this place up online and just loved everything about it. The scenery, the menu, the wedding planner that came with the package. It all seemed so perfect.
I got the reply email this morning. They are booked for the date I want.
So now I feel like a miserable lump of sad.
“It is not the end of the world, Katie,” I keep telling myself. There are plenty of other venues to look at. And if I really want that place, I could just change the date.
But the date would be sooooooo perfect.
And then I gave myself the proverbial slap in the face.
I need to slow the f down.
I’m not even engaged yet. Now I know how Mr. Big Truck felt the other night when I brought all my planning crap up to him.
Slow the HELL down.
I don’t feel like I’m doing this the right way. Just because he put money down for the ring and the engagement is coming eventually , doesn’t mean I have to plan the whole freakin wedding right this second.
I’m gonna pretend like I don’t know it’s coming. Then once we’re engaged, we’ll plan this like normal couples do. One step at a time. So maybe I’m not meant for a September 2012 wedding. Maybe I need to push it to October or November or whatever. We’ll decide that AFTER we’re engaged.
I went into total wedding overload and I’ve exhausted myself already. Time to just take a step back and relax. I shouldn’t be stressing out over these details so soon. We’re not even engaged yet, sheesh.
I was just trying to get a head start. It’ll work out in the end.
It’s not the end of the world, and it’s certainly NOT gonna stop me from snooping around on here and posting, lol. For now, I’m just gonna put my feet up and relax.
However, it doesn’t help that just yesterday, my mother called me a bridezilla (I’m not even a bride, yet! I’m just a zilla!) for going nuts over reception locations. And then this morning, she tells me she wants to go out with me and buy a wedding planning book! SHEESH!!
She’s weird like that. One day she’s like crying because she’s happy I’m gonna get married, then the next day she’s yelling at me for looking at expensive places and calling me a bridezilla, then the next day she wants to sit down and plan with me. OY.
But for now….. Taking a deep, cleansing breath and just relaxing. There’s no need to rush any of this. I’m just gonna wait and let it all flow…..