- 5 years ago
Over the past 2 years, I have developed more and more anxiety to the point that it feels debilitating. At times I wake with the sheets soaking wet and feelings of panice running through me. I keep trying to breath and have tried yoga, mediation–even over the counter pills. Nothing has helped consistently.
I don’t know why I have anxiety even. I have a great family, good job, good health and married just recently to a wonderful man I’ve known for years. But I am a constant worrier and I wonder if that is what has caused me to develop thsi anxiety. I worry about so many things and then I can hardly function. But now it is beyond my control–the anxiety is present even when I actively try to think good thoughts and avoid worry.
I feel I can’t tell my family because they would be super worried about me. I also don’t want to tell my husband because he will automatically feel that he’s to blame (he’s always trying to make me happy). I do have anxiety about us starting to ttc because he has a physical problem (which he’s seeking to treat) and I worrry we won’t be able to have a child. I’m sure if that wasn’t my worry, then I would find something else to worry about,
I don’t know what’s wrong with me and it terrifies me. I don’t think I can see a counselor because then I’ll have to disclose it to my job (that I sought counseling) and it could comprompise my position.
I recently booked an appointment for acupuncture–maybe that could help me with this anxiety? I’m not sure. All I know is that I struggle to function and it’s only getting worse.