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Hi Bees, 

I've been dying to post here :) and now is my chance. She's in, My Justin Alexander 8484.

Mind you, when I first laid eyes on 8484 in September 2011, I fell in like. I finally located her in white at a shop (2 hrs away) and bam, I instantly knew that was my dress when I tried it on, however, it was a size 14 and I couldn't really 'see' me. My FSIL told me it was gorgeous, but it was sooo big on me and I've only tried on 2 dresses including 8484 so I should keep on looking. I left empty handed and tried on maybe 13 more dresses for a month... the contenders were Snow White Alfred Angelo, and M Sottero Chadley, and Allure C170 I mean,i had huge smiles on my face while I had on those beautiful dresses while posing for photos, but I couldn't say Yes. Finally, I took my MOH back to that shop and showed her 8484, we have a rule in our friendship:HONESTY and frankness so i got this from her: "honestly love: i just can't see you in it..."

The bridal salon owners and other brides and their entourage actually gave me advices that maybe I should go with the mermaid or trumpet dress (they've seen me come out in those silhouette) because you're a tiny girl and well "that's a lot of dress" everytime I put on ball/poofy gowns.

As the search went on, I went to another bridal salon with the FSIL and saw they had 8484 but in Ivory.  I tried it on, it was a size 12, and flat and squished- basically - it looked like a sad looking drab of a dress. I wanted to cry - because when I tried it on at the two hr away salon, it looked good. She told me "You knew it was your dress then, just get it."  

So I did. I ordered my Justin back in October and they told me it would take only 6 to 8 months to make it so if anything, i could order it in January so I can think about it, but i was just too exhausted to even think of trying on more dresses.

And a week after, had major - major dress regret. MAJOR. Because now all the advices kept on replaying in my head and my FI loves it when I wear sexy clothes and 8484 shows NOTHING, not even the shape of my body (i think) and finally the last time i put 8484 on, the drabbiness haunted me, no shape, no cleavage sexiness, no sweetheart neckline and no mom input.  My mom lives in another country, so I couldn't even run to her for a hug. So I kept coming back here to look at other bride's dresses and searching the internet for 8484 real brides photos. Although I've seen other brides (3-4 only) on it, they're usually on brides that are bigger than me.

So in desperation, I went on Dressillyme late last month and ordered a trumpet dress which I'll get by end of . I justified it as my reception dress although in my head it was really, in case i hate my 8484 and cant sell it before the wedding... BEES, I was so anxious and I'm that kind of girl, the one where I need a hug from my mom otherwise, ill go buy something to make myself feel better and in control...(i have several boxes of new shoes in the closet.)

Then plans suddenly changed because we just found out my immediate family won't be able to make it to the US/DR wedding on time because of VISA issues. I have to go back to my hometown end of March for a huge reunion, and well, when I talked to FI about the visa issues, he said, why don't we just have a wedding there for your family too??!! how sweet is he? So in April, we are symbolically getting married in front of my family. Although I was so elated that my family will be part of the wedding. I remembered I sorta dont have a dress and need one ASAP! The dressillyme dress hasnt arrived and who knows what it owuld look like. The anxiety came back! FULL FORCE!

I've read a lot of the threads here saying you gotta stop looking etc etc, but I couldn't   Instead, I got an email saying that a bridal store is going out of business and everything was 50% off. I decided I was going, on my own. And well, bad idea. Because I purchased another dress off the rack  though I didn't get the same feeling I did when I put on 8484 the first time, I'm very much happy with it. It's romantic, it's got the sweetheart neckline, sorta dropped waist so you can see my figure and is currently being altered to fit me like a glove. And I'm just happy that I have a dress to wear again in October just in case I would hate 8484.

Anyway, last week, i was very surprised when they called me to say she's in (it's only been 4 months) I'm down with the flu - so I wont be able to drive till im better. I'll see her in 10 days. I'm so excited. Anxious, but excited. I just hope... i just hope i'll love her.