- 5 years ago
- Wedding: September 2013
About a year ago my fiance came to me and admitted he was struggling with staying faithful to me. He told me there was a woman in his life who really tempted him. After a lot of fighting and tearful discussions, he(on his own accord) decided to cut ties with this woman and focus on fixing our relationship.
Things got immensely better and I had even started to trust him again.
Then tonight I grabbed the laptop to surf the web for a bit. I had been on earlier so I thought I was still logged into facebook. I pulled up the messages and realized I was actually on my fiance’s. I would have just logged off but I noticed the very first message was from this woman he “cut out of his life.” So I stupidly read it even though I knew I wouldn’t like it.
I was completely mortified and broken. He apparently started talking to her a couple of months ago, She initiated the convo but he replied with “I just can’t stay away from you.”
The most recent convo went something like this. I will be refering to the other woman as OW.
OW: So my mom is moving close to you in a few months.
Fiance: Really? That’s…..unexpected.
OW: Yeah I wish it had happened a year ago because I would have been able to seize my opportunity to be with you. I would have f***** you in ways you could never imagine.
Fiance: Yeah I’m not going to lie I wouldn’t have been able to say no. We’d have a crazy time.
OW: Yeah but you’re the sweetest guy with a good heart so you would have felt bad and I would feel bad that you feel bad.
Fiance: True but we could have been bad together.
OW: I’m a terrible person because I would still f*** you regardless of your relationship status.
Fiance: I guess that makes me a terrible person as well.
OW: If you weren’t with her things would be a lot different, you know?
Fiance: Fair enough
OW: Oh well there’s always divorce.
Fiance: WOW! Now THAT’S terrible But also entertaining.
OW: Well I’m not going to lie. I’ve never lied you.
Fiance: I wouldn’t expect any less.
OW: I hope you have a short and unhappy marriage which ends in an unbitter and amicable divorce.
Fiance: 😀 Well thank you, I think.
OW; You’re welcome.
I’m at a loss for words. I’m torn between curling up in the fetal position and crying, waking him up right now and screaming until I can’t anymore, or simply taking off my ring, sitting it on the nightstand and leaving him forever.