- 4 years ago
Hi Bees! I just needed to vent quickly. I’ve been “waiting” for almost a year now, and I’m coming down to the very end of the wait: BF and I are going ring shopping this weekend and are likely getting engaged within the next 3-4 months! I’m so excited and so happy that the “waiting” period of my life is coming to a close.
However, for some reason, the closer it gets to being over, the harder it is to wait and the more jealous I feel of those who are getting engaged/married/buying houses/getting pregnant. I am so happy for my friends who are experiencing these milestones, but it’s also really hard to feel like you’re the only one whose life is NOT moving forward in some way. I know this is kind of silly, especially considering I’ll be likely be engaged soon, but it’s really started bothering me this weekend. I try not to compare myself to others, but it’s hard when my best friend has been with her husband only 1.5 years longer than I’ve been with my BF, and they’re married homeowners with a baby on the way, and I’m still waiting for my ring!
I know it will be all worth it in the end and I am so glad that MY boyfriend is mine and that I’m not with anyone else, but it’s still getting so frustrating in these last few waiting months. Just had to vent!
Here’s hoping I can be patient, keep my mouth shut, and continue feeling excited (rather than frustrated) as the proposal approaches. 🙂