- 6 years ago
- Wedding: September 2013
… for her masters degree. Which, of course, is awesome. My whole family’s really proud of her.
But she sort of made the decision to go all of a sudden, and that means she’s leaving for New York in late May/early June (semester starts 2nd week of June). The program’s only a year (she’ll graduate in May 2013), but … I just realized she’s going to miss the entire year of planning my wedding.
I know that sounds really selfish and terrible, but she IS my little sister and my Maid/Matron of Honor, and we just started REALLY planning things. I wanted to get all of my BM’s together at the end of this summer to make plans for dress shopping, the shower, etc, and basically reconnect, but that obviously can’t happen. So now I’m going to have to figure out how to get all 4 of them together BEFORE she leaves for school! My other BMs have such crazy lives/schedules, I’m really nervous this won’t happen. And how in the heck is she suppsed to get a dress and pay for other “bridesmaid” stuff when she’ll be a struggling college student?
On a less selfish side, I am really sad that she’s leaving again. (both of us still live at home for now). When she went away to school for her bachelor’s, we got really distant and fought a lot after she came back home. But now that she’s been home for about 2 years, we’ve finally reconnected and have become close again and now … she’s leaving again. I just feel sad and disappointed.
I would never, ever ask her to postpone this opportunity, especially because it was already postponed once when my mom got really sick, but … sigh. It’s just going to be hard missing her. And I will be worrying about her A LOT. And I was really looking forward to planning my wedding with her.
Ugh, I did NOT expect to have this kind of reaction. I feel really, really sad and disappointed that she won’t be able to share this time with me.