Post # 1
Hi Waiting Bees…
I wrote here the other day with some background of my relationship and how my darling boy is taking me away this weekend for a special birthday surprise weekend.
We leave tomorrow and I am so incredibly excited. I am really looking forward to a 4 day break together and can’t wait to be spoilt… however… I had this strong feeling that this really could be it, that this would be the perfect time (we have been together for 8 years – he is 29, I am 28 – and have talked at ends that we will marry). I really had this strong feeling for the last week this is it…
But the last couple of days I have began to think, what if it doesn’t happen this weekend, what if all these day dreams I allowed myself to have are going to set me up for an even greater fall. A greater disappointment.
I do not want to ruin this wonderful gift he is giving me, this special weekend away, but I can’t help but shake this feeling in my gut that he may not propose to me and I am trying to prepare myself for no engagement.
Just felt like I needed to vent as I definitely cannot bring it up with the boy which is so hard since I share everything with him. Feeling very annoyed at myself for even feeling like this.
I feel over myself feeling like this! HA.
Any words of wisdom would be much appreciated.
Who knows, maybe I will be updating this with some ring porn in a couple of days…
Post # 3
Just focus on the trip as the wonderful gift it is. Embrace everything he has planned, remain present in the moment, and have fun. If he does propose, wonderful! But if he doesn’t, that’s okay, too. Hope you have a great time!
Post # 4
Just wanted to send you hugs and good luck vibes -I really hope it happens for you.
If it doesn’t, well you’ve still had a lovely trip and still got your man, plus we’ll be here to send you virtual hugs!!
But anyway, I have my fingers crossed for you, really hope it happens for you
Post # 5
@waitinglittleone: I agree with both the PPs. I truly hope that it does happen on your trip and that you have an amazing getaway. Don’t stress about it happening and enjoy your time together. If it doesn’t happen, at least you can look back and think what a wonderful time you had! Then you can come here and vent to all of us! Hugs to you! Enjoy your special birthday weekend!
Post # 6
@waitinglittleone: I hope it happens for you too!! Try to enjoy the trip for what it is, though– an awesome birthday present! That way if he doesn’t propose, you’ll be able to enjoy it some.
I’m worried I’m going to be in a similar position this May, when my SO and I are going on a special vacation we’re planning together. He just seems very ordinary about it all, though, which makes me think I should definitely NOT get my hopes up.
BUT I think you have good reason to get your hopes up, especially since you and your SO have talked about marriage so much. Has he been acting odd lately?
Good luck!! I’m looking forward to an update to this next week!