- 4 years ago
- Wedding: April 2014
I am so pissed off right now it’s not even funny.
Every time I have an idea, or want something, I can’t get it done. Because my mother says no, it’s a dumb idea, it’s “not me” (whatever the fuck that’s supposed to mean) and does her best to drag me around southeast Virginia for better ideas. No matter how much I tell her I want the wedding at the Outer Banks (really, FH does, and I’m just going with what he wants), she shows me shit around Tidewater that I am just not interested in and have told her this repeatedly!
And oh my god, the dress. I found The Dress. She offered to pay for it, cool. So of course she has to run me all around southeast VA trying to find one SHE likes better. ARGH!
Then she has the nerve to tell me that I’m not getting anything done and I’m wasting my time! HELLO! I’m trying to get shit done! I’m the only person doing anything for this goddamn wedding! I’ve been the one looking up ideas, trying to find venues in case the ones I want don’t work out, I’ve been the one looking for shit to go with my dress, who else has done that? Oh, right. nobody. And she’s the one trying to drag me away from what I want!
Then she bitches at me for not being able to find a job, like it’s a problem with laziness rather than the fact that I’m at least an hour away from the jobs SHE wants me to have. Like temp jobs. All the temp agencies are an hour away! All of the jobs they’ve listed are even further away! There’s nothing here in my town, I’ve applied for job after job the last year here and NOTHING!
And SHE’s the one “beating her head against a wall” and stressing out about it? Does she not get that I’ve been feeling much the same way!?
for fuck’s sake I’m so tired of it. She doesn’t seem to realize that every time she’s acted like SHE’S the one beating her head against the wall, it makes me really care less! Like I don’t have anything to do with it anymore and it’s not even for me. I’m so tempted to just have the courthouse ceremony now, with the *real* honeymoon, because the Outer Banks? not worth this shit. I grew up there anyway, I can still go there any time.