- 6 years ago
After freaking out for months about things with career and relationship, last night was a moment of clarity.
My job that I had loved dearly moved out of state 3 months ago, and I chose to go back to another less fullfilling position at my company instead of following the job I loved. I did so because of Mr. Tri… He had stated that he wouldn’t EVER move to this location, so I knew that I would have to choose . Pay etc wasn’t a factor in this choice so…it was basically me choosing between career and relationship. I chose relationship. Let me preface this with the fact that I have done this before in a previous relationship that literally blew up on me and sent my life into a complete tailspin and overhaul, so doing this scared me a ton.
For the last 3 months I have been questioning my move a lot… wondering if Mr Tri felt the same way about me as I did him. Half worrying that I was replaying mistakes in my head.
But last night all of the little blocks aligned to make sense of a lot of mixed emotions and worries… all thanks to Mr Tri’s cousin
Mr Tri has been consumed by $$ for about the last 6 months, and I couldn’t quite figure it out, was it a sense of accomplishment was it a feeling of being good enough, I just didn’t get it. He’s been crazy about his debt and his career to the point of annoying on occasion. But now I know why
Last night while at a concert ( his bday present from me) his cousin asked me what the deal was with us and when we were going to get engaged… I danced around the question and decided to use it as ammo for questions later. I needed to put my worries to rest once and for all… they were eating at me…
So last night I got some guts and told him what his cousin asked, and I got the answer of when I have enough money, followed by a joking comment in regards to the fact that he would have to propose with a lifesaver right now…
Although I’d be happy with that or a twist tie, I will wait happily… I know tha the wants to marry me and right now, that is enough.