- Mrs. Gremmlin
- 6 years ago
- Wedding: November 2011 - Florida Aquarium
I’m the type of person who is always looking forward. While I’m content in the moment, there is always another goal to reach, another chapter to turn to in my life. Up next, in my eyes, is baby making.
I have a wonderful husband, and we are greatly enjoying being newlyweds. We both have pretty good jobs, a great home (we don’t own yet, though), and three beautiful furbabies. And while we’ve only married for a matter months, we’ve been together for six years.
We’ve made steps toward having a kid. We made a before-baby-bucket-list and have a general timeline (2-4 years). I know I should be content with all of this. But along with always looking to the next big goal in life, I have always, always wanted to be a mom.
Strange as it is, my friends often look to me as a mother. I never thought of it as creepy, though now, it probably was haha. My maternal instinct is crazy, is my point. I’m ready to be a mom.
Today was specifically difficult because I really don’t like my job, and all I could think about was how happy I was years ago as a nanny and that I just wanted to take my kid for a picnic. But, I don’t have a kid– I have a full time job.
I’m not really looking for advice. I’m just sad. Darling Husband is at a MMA class, and I’m cuddling with my pup after baking some cookies, left with my thoughts.
There’s always something more, right?