- 4 years ago
- Wedding: November 2007
I’m trying really hard not to cry as I write this, but I honestly have no idea what do do at this point.
My gyno did surgery on me August 5th, detected stage II endometriosis, and told me he cut/burned it all out. I bled for a little over a week and then stopped, and all was well.
I was happy. No pain, no gross discharge that made me feel constantly dirty despite cleaning constantly, no sexual pain.
A week ago I started noticing discharge again. I ignored it and hoped it would go away on its own. Now it’s doing exactly what it was before: a constant flow and ranging from brownish to black. And of course, now I’m having the crippling pain in my pelvis and back. And the last time DH and I had sex, it hurt immediately and we had to stop.
Bees, what do I do? I thought my symptoms would be relieved for at least 12-18 months, with a possibility of never having another symptom again? It hasn’t even been two months and I’m having the same exact symptoms.
I cried for hours last night, because I just don’t know what I’m supposed to do. I haven’t had a full period yet, but I’m assuming that’s because I have implanon. I’m still definitely dealing with every other symptom. I just want to scream.
My gyno gave me 3 options at my first visit with him: laparoscopy (which I did), the Lupron shot, and a pill (can’t remember the name). Would they put me on Lupron this soon after surgery? Is that even an effective way to deal with this, or would it not help? I just hate feeling so dirty all the time, and I hate being in constant pain. I feel so alone. I hate, hate, hate this!!! I’m back to wearing pads daily in fear of having an ‘accident’ at work. I’m back to taking 800mg of ibuprofen that doesn’t begin to touch the pain. I feel like I never even had surgery!!
I don’t want to deprive DH of sex anymore. He understands, and loves me, but it’s not friggin fair to him (or ME) that we can’t have sex without me crying and writhing in pain!
I don’t know what to do, Bees. :/ I’m just so angry/upset…