Post # 1
Hey Bees, I just thought I’d see if there was anyone else around here in my shoes.
In the summer of 2011 I decided I needed to get healthy. I started at 287. That looks crazy to type, and I’m kind of debating deleting the number, but if I’m going to post, i might as well put it all out there, yeah?
By summer of 2013 I was down to 210. It took me forever to lose those eighty-ish pounds. Not even a pound a week when I look at it. I went “off” track for the summer in 2012, and for the time that I was dating my ex, but for the majority of those two years I was eating relatively okay and excercising occasionally.
Last summer, I met my SO. He is great, wonderful in fact, but life with him can be a little stressful. He has a pretty serious health issue that has me on pins and needles, and also affects his abilities to hold down a regular job. He also has the metabolism of a freakin’ hummingbird. He has a banging body and he doesn’t even do anything to maintain it. I can’t wait until he hits 50 and it catches up with him. He eats tons of junk and because I like junk, I eat it too.
None of this is his fault. I want that to be clear. I am a stress eater though, and I think that a combination of being happier than I’ve ever been, combined with the stress of the past year has contributed a lot.
Anyway, long story short–I gained it all back. In fifteen months. All of it, plus five pounds.
I feel disgusting.
I hate my body.
I kind of hate myself for letting it get this far.
So, I’m going to try to get back on track. I’ll be posting in here when I feel like it, and I’d like to find some kind of support with Bees who have lost it–and then found it again.
Can anyone commiserate?
Post # 2
jillbean1217: DH gets to eat wharever he wants and looks amazing too. It’s annoying, BUT he is fully supportive of me. I went on My Fitness Pal and lot over 25 pounds. Then I got pregnant with our first child, and I gained that back plus some more. I ended up losing a lot of it on my own, but then at 185 or so I had to go back on MFT and start taking it seriously. I go to the gym now and eat properly. The weight is coming off slow and in areas it didn’t before, but it is coming off. I’m down to 177 now, and I am slowly but steadily losing the inches and weight. Can’t wait to be 165 like I was before I got pregnant. Even from there I have quite a bit to lose (would like to be down to 130), but baby steps. I can do this. And so can you!
Post # 3
*hug* I lost 20 pounds and gained 8 of it back. I stopped eating properly.
Now I am taking natural appetite suppressants and watching what I eat again.
My goal weight for now is 160. I am on medication which causes weight gain, so that makes weight loss even harder.
Strenous exercise is terribly painful so I just do a lot of walking.
Post # 4
After my divorce I was on a devastation diet and dropped to 118. Then I got married, pregnant, stress of awful job, personal drama…blah blah blah- I got up to 193. Last October I decided to work on myself and so far I have lost 44 pounds (only 4 pounds away from “healthy” for my height). I used MyFitnessPal to track what I was eating and make better food choices.
Post # 5
jillbean1217: I’m so with you! We should start a support group of some kind. I made great progress in my weight loss for about 2 months (everyone was complimenting me, I had to buy new clothes, I felt great, etc.), but ever since, the weight has crept back and I’m back where I started. It sucks and I feel awful and disgusted at myself. Each day I wake up and tell myself, “Today, I’m getting back on track!” but it just never works out.
My FI is very lanky and can eat whatever he wants and stay that way, so for dinners, it is painfully difficult for me to just eat a salad or something while he has his meat ‘n potatoes. And we don’t have a very big kitchen or much time to prepare meals because we work long hours, so it’s far too difficult for us to make two separate meals at once and eat together.
I keep telling myself that if I did it once, I can do it again, but it’s just so hard…
Post # 6
megz06: Don’t you just hate that? It makes me want to punch him right in the mouth. Positive thinking and baby steps, that’s what i have to keep reminding myself!
PositiveThinking: I straight up hate working out. I don’t mind it so much when I”m there, but I think that’s all the endorphins. Thinking about going to the gym gives me skyhigh anxiety.
eeniebeans: Devestation diet. I don’t like the idea, but I like the term. I’m glad to see you’re making progress!
TheGridMonster: Let’s do it. We can do it here or over on MFP. My username there is the same. It’s just SO HARD to stick with it. I’m on day three of doing fairly well, and I do all of our grocery shopping and meal planning so that helps. My SO is really great about just eating what I tell him, and he wants me to be happy (luckily for us both, he’s a saint and hasn’t really said anything about the freaking EIGHTY POUNDS I’ve gained, besides a few “well, if you want to, I’ll help you” comments)
But I swear to you as I’m typing this I’m hearing the people in my office talking about fudge. SHUT UP. ALL OF YOU.
Post # 7
I just bought some Ben and Jerry’s yesterday. I am having my period and I need my sweets.
I deserve it; I have been eating properly again for weeks. That’s my story and I’m sticking to it.
Post # 8
Right there with you. A couple years ago I joined Weight Watchers at 290 pounds and got down to 230. It was amazing what a difference 60 pounds made! Then I changed jobs, got dumped, met a new guy who loves food as much as I do (and I’m a Chef so that’s saying a lot!)
Two months ago I hit my heaviest weight EVER at 320 on my 5’6 frame. I was so upset that my fiance made the call that we were going back to Weight Watchers together. Today I’m at 310 and I definitely am feeling a lot better though I still have a long road ahead
But, I’m also the person who just posted a thread called “I Hate My Arms.” I too feel disgusting and that no one wants to see someone like me in a body-hugging white gown.
Post # 9
jillbean1217: I love MFP and Fitbit. It helps me squeeze in that extra workout and helps me see where my calories are coming from.
I’m also doing a lot of subbing — homemade frozen yogurt (no added sugars, just fruit to sweeten) is my go-to dessert. It’s just as satisfying to me as ice cream and about 2/3 the calories.
If I cut out a lot of added sugar, fat and breads, I don’t feel deprived and can stick to my goals. I also don’t weigh myself every day. I just follow the process and eat a little if I’m hungry. 20 minutes later, if I’m still hungry, I eat a little more. So what’s worked for me is never getting so hungry I get out of control.
MFP has an awesome online community — I recommend checking it out 🙂
Post # 10
jillbean1217: Oh OP :/ I’m sorry. I am happy though that you are taking back control and working on getting yourself to a place that makes you happy. It’s tough, I know. Do you have a friend that can help you out along the way? Go to the gym with you to help with motivation? Have you met with and talked to a nutritionist? A personal trainer?
My partner can eat whatever the hell he wants too and not gain any weight. I was like that when on BCPs. Since coming off of those a little more than year ago, I have kept my strict diet and exercise plan (no change in lifestyle) and still managed to gain 20lbs. Eeeeeek. Doctor said that was unhealthy and unlike me. I can commiserate on having to lose the unwanted weight. It’s difficult.
Post # 11
PositiveThinking: Ben and Jerry’s! I said SUPPORT, not TORTURE! haha
BoilerBride101015: Luckily we aren’t engaged yet (though it’s coming soon) and the thought of trying to stuff my size 24 butt into a wedding dress is downright horrifying. So I’m going to try to stay focused. I’m glad I’m not the only one who knows what it feels like to be so disappointed in themselves–especially when we were both doing so good!
bitsybee: I’ve been on MFP before. The last time I did well, I was blogging–but now I’ve kind of gotten out of that, so maybe I’ll try to utilize the message boards on MFP to fill my community void. I’m also one of those people who has to weigh every day. I get too frustrated when I don’t, but I definitely think that’s a personal issue for people. Everyone likes different things.
Sofetch15: My SO actually used to go to the gym with me before our membership lapsed. He’s really encouraging and helpful because he’s been athletic his whole life (while I was just a major book worm). I should re-sign with the gym, but our financial situation has been so shaky lately that the extra money really is a burden–even the $20 at Planet Fitness.
Post # 12
Sorry baby! I was just trying to commiserate.
Post # 13
jillbean1217: I read somewhere that something like 95% of people who lose weight will gain it back. So no, you’re not alone. 😉 I’ve been on a weight gain and loss roller coaster my whole life. My heaviest was a couple years ago–I estimated I hit a bit over 200, but I stopped getting on the scale several months prior when I saw 197. I’m only 5’0!
All my friends were talking about MyFitnessPal (which is free) and not-so-subtley hinting I should join. I’m SO glad I did! The best thing about it is that I’ve really educated myself on nutrition and food and what MY body needs–and no it’s not a 1200 calorie restrictive diet full of “low-fat” or “diet” foods. There is a happy medium, and I’m convinced the reason why so many people gain it back is because we have a mentality of being “on” or “off” a diet. As trite as the saying is now, it’s truly a lifestyle change. I’ve lost about 45 or so pounds over 2.5 years. No, that is not fast, but I’m not “dieting” and it’s the longest I’ve gone without gaining weight. I eat chocolate every day. I partake in birthday sweets and special occasion cookies in the office. I just make sure I track it all in MyFitnessPal and know how many calories I’ve been eating over the course of the week. It’s important to be honest with yourself!
I’ve picked up yoga–which I actually love. I do go to the gym twice a week at 5:30 am, but the trainer is cute so it makes it worth it. 😉 It’s about finding a healthy balance that works for you. Good luck!
Post # 14
jillbean1217: no worries if weighing works for you! I was just sharing what’s working for me. I get too attached to the numbers so if I gain or don’t lose (even water weight that time of month) I get so bummed I can inhale a pint of ice cream. Which means I’m definitely gaining then!
Definitely different people are different, so I hope you find something healthy that works for you. We’re here for support, more ideas, recipes — whatever you need!
Post # 15
I could definitely use some tips! In february, I started dieting again and eating healthy. I cut out soda, carbs, sweets and went to the gym 2-3x a week and lost 10lbs in 1 month! Like PP have said though, my SO can eat anything he wants and not gain a lb. Drives me nuts. I fell off the wagon because I couldn’t stand watching him eat all the goods without me and gained all of it back PLUS 7 lbs. I went from 158 to 148 to 164!! 🙁 I’ve been trying to get back to my weight loss but between my SO’s hip surgery and wedding planning and all of these family parties, I can’t get a grip.
I just need someone to give me a meal plan and an exercise routine that I can stick to and then i’ll be motivated to lose weight =/ Luckily I have 3 months before I have to go dress shopping