- 7 years ago
- Wedding: November 2013
Just thought I would give you guys a little update. I wrote a post about a month ago where I explained my situation a little bit and said I was trying not to get my hopes up that my SO would propose on a 3 day trip we were planning.
Well I did. Before leaving I noticed the ring still on his desk meaning he was not going to bring it or propose. I was beyond crushed. I tried to suck it up and have a good trip but in the back of my mind was that he didn’t even consider using the trip as a time to propose. And we did end up having a great time on the trip despite some crazy weather which shut down our hotel leaving us scrambling to find another one (another story for another time.)
I don’t keep quiet when something is bothering me, I say what is on my mind. So with the help of a couple of drinks a few days later I asked him if we were still on the same page and mentioned the ring still lonely on his desk. He assures me we are and that he doesn’t think it is unusual that he has had the ring since Feb. without proposing (he thinks this is totally normal). He also mentioned he still has not even asked my dad.
I know this changes nothing between us really. We are very happy, still very much in love, but I hate the constant disappointment. I wish I didn’t know about the ring. I have been staying away from the bee (as much as I can ), and trying to keep myself busy with job applications and work, but I just feel really deflated, sad and discouraged. I wish I knew what was holding him back.
I don’t know what I’m really looking for here, I guess I just wanted to share, maybe to explain my absence from posting, and maybe to find out if there are any bees dealing with a similar situation. Thanks for reading all this if you made it through I know I can always turn to the bees!