- 6 years ago
Had several serious conversations with SO about our marriage, even more indepth than we had before. Conversations about WHEN we get married, WHEN we have a baby, WHERE we will live. I told him exactly how I was feeling about this waiting and that it was making me feel very unhappy and torn up in side, not to mention that our relationship felt very insecure to me. I didn’t think it was fair to talk about giving up my car to share one, and getting a dog together this Christmas while we are just boyfirend and girlfriend. I feel like we were playnig house and I feel like he is procrastinating about proposing. I am just being slightly cautious because I know he has had the ring since May and he tells me he “needs to talk” about things when we get married, LOTS of times! When we talk, I feel like this is it! The proposal shoudl be coming soon! Then it doesn’t, I feel dissapointed and resentful and then we have another “talk”.
I realized after our many talks that he just has concerns about a lot of things, he is very anal when it comes to big life decisions, and thinks things over very carefully. We had legitimate things to talk about, especially concerning my Dirty Delete from my 1st marriage. So big progress, I feel very good right now (and the last couple weeks) that things are really going to progress and he has been bringing up the topic of this proposal (that apparently I am going to be so suprised about) on a daily basis. Sometimes, several times a day. So….I am happy and being patient. 🙂 Pus, we have a weekend planned together Dec 2nd….. I pray this guy gets off the pot. LOL 🙂