- 5 years ago
- Wedding: May 2014
Bear with me, this is kind of hard to explain.
So I tend to have very vivid dreams that I remember, and last night I dreamt that my SO and I were at my law school reunion (SO was just with me, he didn’t go to law school). I saw a lot of old friends there, and then my male friend (let’s call him J) showed up.
(background from real life haha): J and I had kind of this flirtatious relationship where we weren’t dating but we hung out all of the time, very ‘date-like” stuff, went to “law school prom” together (he had confided in me he was a virgin at that point, we were 22, and I was not very good at being the aggressor). Everyone in law school assumed we were together although we were never “official” and nothing romantic actually ever happened (kissing, etc.). We were very close in law school but I moved away after law school and then we lost touch. I have sinced moved back and have crossed each other’s paths now and again at court or something (professionally, not socially) but not very often. We’re in Buffalo (city) so it’s not a small town where I would run into him a lot.
Anyway, back to the dream, J was flirting with me while my SO was hanging out with some other people. It was blantant and he looked really good. Although it felt tempting, nothing happened. It felt wrong and then I left J and I went over to my SO and just hugged him and kissed him.
So back to real life:
I think I dreamt that scenario because SO and I had dinner last night with my 2 law school friends who got married. So it triggered these feelings/memories, etc.
Today, I’m walking to court, and I look to my left as I’m stopped to cross the street at a red light and don’t you know THERE IS J. He’s just there, waiting to cross the other way. I literally haven’t seen him in probably a 1 1/2-2 years. I was so stunned I couldn’t speak (he didn’t see me) and just kept walking.
I’m a very spiritual person although not super religious, but I definitely had a moment when I was like “wow, God, thanks for the sign!”. In my dream nothing happened and I went to SO, and then in real life with J right in front of me I felt nothing but “let me get away”. If he saw me I would have been polite but absolutely no romantic/flirty feelings whatsoever.
I just thought it was so strange, it was this random moment that confirmed by complete commitment to SO and really made me laugh.