- 5 years ago
- Wedding: July 2013
I am feeling completely overwhelmed and I am starting to feel depressed about the whole thing and I don’t know what to do anymore. Weddings are supposed to be happy especially your own and I’ve been crying about it so much lately.
Wedding planning isn’t my thing to begin with but I was excited at first since I obviously love my fiance so much and I can’t wait to be his wife. I wanted to do a small beach wedding with just our parents since I hate being the center of attention but we are young and just built a house and beach weddings were too expensive. We decided a small wedding in our backyard would be fun and we have plenty of room. I personally don’t call 70 people small but that’s what we came up with. He wanted a big party after with all of our closest friends and family which is 130 more people totally 200. So much for hating being the center of attention with 200 people staring at me. Every time we try to cut down the list someone gets mad at us (either my parents or his). I’ve always been such a pushover and I convinced myself at the beginning that this wedding would be what I wanted for once but it is quickly turning the other way as usual.
Invitations have been ordered but not sent out yet and I’m thinking about sitting down tonight with my fiance and talking about actually having a small wedding with just our parents, maid of honor and best man, flower girls and grandparents. It’s so hard because again we’ll be upsetting everyone else but I’m sick of being the one who has to suffer just to make everyone else happy when it’s supposed to be our day.
Sorry for the long rant, if anyone has advice I’d really appreciate it.