- 5 years ago
super excited to be writing one of these posts I used to read and wish so so much that it was me !
in feb I posted a walking letter http://boards.weddingbee.com/topic/a-walking-letter-after-6-yrs-but-will-i-give-it-to-him. despite the letter I (fortunately) didn’t break up with my man… but instead moved out completely. things improved considerably after that.
this summer I read with (supportive and loving!) envy the posts about girls knowing that a holiday proposal was on the cards. the ones about girls who knew there was a ring in his possession. and above all the holiday proposals. I had a glint hope… but knew deep down there was no way in hell my man would be able to buy a ring without me finding out and as i knew he hadn’t got one I knew our Croatian holiday would be just that and nothing more and that I really should just not think about a proposal. it wasn’t happening this time.
oh how wrong I was. our first dip in the clear water sea was freezing. I was about to get back onto dry and sunny land but he grabbed me and said wait. proceeded then to tell me lots of nice things including a lovely apology for making me wait so long but that he knew it would only be the right time when we were just happy being together and not hung up on being engaged or married. he said other stuff then asked me to marry him. I did say yes and not just to get out of the cold water!!
but when we did get out. he had a ring! I couldn’t believe it! he had popped out one afternoon and I remember being cross cos id been in the shower and he hadn’t told me he was going and I had wanted to go too … (he told me he went to visit a friend). gosh he must have thought me an ungrateful grump !!
anyways all the pain and resentment I’d experienced during my long wait made me think getting engaged would be an ‘it’s about time’ moment. but actually it wasn’t at all. I was surprised. surprised that i was surprised. and just so so happy all the way to my heart.
this forum has been a steady source of support for me and there are a lot of beautiful longing hearts that will be rewarded soon xx