- 3 years ago
- Wedding: October 2015
Hey all, so if you have read my previous posts, you know that I started to realize that a proposal would most likely not happen this year.
Since I wrote that post, I have bought a car. And BF is still planning on buying his own car in October. As it stands right now with our finances and jobs, we cannot even afford to move in together right now.
The only way we could afford a place together is if I got a substantial raise or if he gets a better paying job. And he is looking every single day for a job. He checks the job boards every day to see if a position has opened back up in his old job. (He used to work as a corrections officer and he’s trying to get his old job back)
We both know that he is a shoo-in if a position does open up. It’s just a matter of something becoming available.
Anyway. Even though he plans on using his grandmother’s ring to propose with, which would make cost a non-issue, I still don’t think he’s going to propose on our one year anniversary in September.
Lately, he has been super affectionate and loving! I mean, he’s always been affectionate and loving but he seems to have really stepped it up lately. I’ve even teased him about it, saying “Well you sure are affectionate tonight!”
When I say that, he always smiles and says “I will be affectionate if I want to, missy.” Then he kisses or hugs me.
And sometimes, I will catch him just looking at me. I mean, he will just gaze at me with a soft, tender smile and I’ll ask him what he’s thinking about. He’ll smile and say “Secret thoughts. But don’t worry, it’s all good thoughts!”
Throughout our entire relationship, he’s always done those looks. But lately…he does it all the time!
And another thing. When I bought my car, we agreed to postpone our anniversary plans. He had planned a secret weekend getaway. All I knew about it was that we were going out of town.
But since I bought my car, I had to put $1,000 down for the bank. I only had $500 at the time but the bank agreed to work me with me and let me pay the other $500 by September 17th. So because of that, I am in the process of saving up $500. And BF has had to take on some of my bills to make that possible.
So we had to delay our anniversary plans of going out of town. This weekend, I asked him what we would do to celebrate. I told him that I wanted to do at least something to mark our anniversary, even if it was cheap and/or free. I then asked him if he had any ideas.
He smiled at me and said “Don’t worry about it. I got this.” And when I pressed for details, he shook his head and said, “Nope! It’s a secret!”
So…I mean…is it possible that he’s planning to propose on the 7th? Even though we can’t afford to live together right now? Even though it would mean a long engagement?
I don’t think he’s going to…sort of. I don’t know, his amazingly sweet, loving behavior lately is kind of making me think he will. Sigh.
Help me, ladies. Talk me down! I don’t want to expect a proposal on our anniversary in case I’m wrong and end up being disappointed. Based on what I have typed in this post, how likely is it that he’s going to propose?